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ticking like a cheap clock
i take the afternoon off work. going to the park, exboycurrentboy makes me a daisychain necklace, i feel almost, halfway pretty. a few pints, meet with friends, we make a rope sing & i feel like i'm flying, i told you i could do it ( Read more... ) -
papa has a brand new lover// i'm in heaven with my brand new ak47
sea green sunshine bursts through full length windows of the bar & i think maybe if i hadn't been at work today it would have rained. sods law batters me. i serve alcholics with no hope for anything better in their lives, they look almost grey. it's a sad tale & all i can think is somehow i manage to romanticise this scene. grown men so drunk they ( Read more... ) -
Atomic _____ you're hair is beautiful
i spend my time listening to Blondie & Depeche Mode.this is no bad thing & makes me smile. i work a minimum of 12 hours a day, my legs ache & i cry at night because the muscles spasm. i need the money & a little working to myself to the bone may not kill me, we shall see.
& i should skiddadle, i have another 12/13 hour shift today. -
you think i'm not worth a penny, but i feel like a millionaire
i sever my ties with sirens that pull me into their depths. i really don't need people in my life belittling me for my choices, my beliefs & my decisions. coral may be beautiful but not when i'm being forced to view it while struggling to breath ( Read more... ) -
_____of a lonely heart filled with love
i deleted the last entry it wasn't me talking, thinking, breathing, i don't know who it was, but it wasn't me, i'm thoughts & feelings & passion, not cold & calculated, at least, i hope i'm not ( Read more... ) -
i'll be your fairy to the world
they rip at my strawberry laces & open my chasms with speculums. peering inside of me, looking for my insides but of course they don't exist & i repeat this & still they don't believe me. take me home please, cloud castles in the sky, i'm crying here because everything crashes around my ears.loudly ( Read more... ) -
the apple of their eyes//mother is the word for god on childrens lips
i need to get this out today as it isn't annoying me.one thing you need to remember, i love my parents to pieces, i would be devestated without them ( Read more... ) -
what have you been reading?
the sky is stormy & the ground shakes. stormy seas & my head swirls. i spin round the world in a blink of an eye, i lose myself & find myself again seconds later. round & round i go, people & faces, nightmares of me getting ill again, i don't want to & i can't, i can't even say if i am better now. confused? possible chance, i want to roll a dice to ( Read more... ) -
i am a ticking time bomb//i am your god
languid fluid, i still am just about, although it looks calm from where you sit; beneath the surface is dirty & savage, i claw at reality tearing my marks. i told you a freak strom could topple everything ( Read more... ) -
i am black sludge in the drain
things turn into mush, my life seems to stop. where am i going? i don't seem to be able to do anything right. yet i don't feel sad. & i don't know what to think or say or do.
i suppose i'm confused, people & life, can you say that again please?
sludge, i am sludge not languid liquid. & where did i go again please?