okay so ive been hiding out the last few days trying to sort everything out in my head. im doing a little better, i dont think im going to run away anymore. still no job. i have an offer to become a nanny for my dads partner who is from pakistan. his wife is a doctor too, but she is american. they have 4 kids and one on the way. i met them and have ( Read more... )

i woke up with this strange bad feeling. i hope everythings okay, i am feeling a very weird bad vibe. i hope its just me.

well today it was actually in the 60s here. nice. i never thought i would be happy about the weather getting warmer. everybody was outside, it was like that will smith song summertime. time to sit back and unwind, just kidding. im still all upset about everything. matt wont even answer my phone calls anymore and i w3as being nice, and the last time ( Read more... )

ok, sincce my last entry i spoke with valerie and ended up calling matt like an idiot. i have to make myself not do it ever again. i only get more upset, i just wanted to check up on gma and stuff. she is stable, but not well. i wish with every ounce of my soul that matt would have given me another chance, not just that but i wish he would have ( Read more... )

i have so so much to write in this journal entry, it could take me hours. unfortunately i only have about 15 minutes before my dad takes over for probably the better part of the night. he is addicted to bidding and buying antique watches and all other types of watch crap. he needs help. anywaus, life has been a rollar coaster of emotions for me ( Read more... )

just got here a few hours ago, trying not to freak out yet. but the countdown has begun. parents out so i managed to make brain better. its freezing here, already got the lecture, i'll update more later. miss all of you soo much

everything seems so insane right now. this is the hardest thing i have ever dealt with next to my brothers death. life here is seemingly unbearable considering the circumstances. there isa no way in hell i could stay here until may. so i stopped going to school and im moving in the next few weeks. now i am fucked with my financial aide and im going ( Read more... )

i just realized that this date was me and my friend sarah from loretto's best friend anniversary. it is also the date i lost my virginity, ha ha. i should celebrate. yeah right. matt and i discussed stuff for like 5 hours last night. same outcome, no dice on us anymore. im still in denial or shock or something, i dont think the reality of the whole ( Read more... )

matt broke up with me yesterday, for reals. i cant believe it, im shocked to say the least. it turns out he is in love with that other chick. i cant believe it after almost 5 years together he has no problem just ending it like this. he did have the decency to let me stay here until i finish this semester, but i dont know if i can handle it. (right ( Read more... )

im jumping on the band wagon too. leave your name and i will tell you what i honestly thnk about you.it will probably be long, just a warning.