Time started: 4:47 pm Central Time ( Read more... )

I am stuck in a place of dynamic stagnancy.
I am sick of the present.
I miss the past and I am excited for the future.
I want a change to come about, but I always fail in my attempts to instigate one.
I want to be swept off my feet.
I want to be considered.
I want to be invited.
I want to mean something to SOMEONE ( Read more... )

I cannot wait for the future. All week and the last few months I have been working on college applications. Finally, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. This is it! 9 short months and I am in college hopefully where I really want to be. Its a new start--something I havent received since I was about 4 years old. I miss the past, i'm sick of ( Read more... )

1. Ever been given a ring? By my grandpa, yeah ( Read more... )

And yet I find myself. Utterly discouraged and dissapointed in myself. Then, sadly, I realize again There's nothing I can do.
I fall into this vicious cycle over and over again. I convince myself of this fabulous thing that could happen to me, I fabricate it in my mind, I
get up the confidence and put myself out there, then some force of nature ( Read more... )

I am ever perpetuated into the same cycle. My hopes and self confidence SKY ROCKET for some mundane reason like meeting a boy, then they PLUMET when it doesnt work out (which is usually the case.) Am I am subconsciously masochistic, or simply extremely naive? I cant seem to answer that question lately...

I sit here at the computer, reading a case about the Hydrogen bomb and staring at the door ( Read more... )

The way a Friday night should be.

Drinking, laughing, eating, talking, dancing... Being real with my closest friends.

Here's to honesty and fun.

Cheers

Maia

I'm not ready.

I'm not ready for school. I'm not ready for college. I'm not ready to be the mature, intellectual, happy person that I know dwells inside me and only comes out during the summer. I'm not ready to be stuck in my depressed, self conscious rut in front of people I hate. I'm not ready to let my summer go. I'm not ready to only see ( Read more... )

What Every Girl Wants1. To Get kissed in the rain ( Read more... )