i feel that had i been given a proper chance
i could have excelled at learning
probably been an honors student
but sadly
i have been provided with the worst education possible
all due to my parents negligence
this makes me sad and angry

i thought i was over it
i'm not
i don't know if i ever will be
it hurts
i thought i moved on
he played me
i should have listened to her
i played myself a fool more then anyone else
it won't take me down
of that i can be sure
but i do have to live with this feeling
it's awful

just the way he makes me smile ( Read more... )

i have found that i can eat if i don't think about it
just the thought of food makes me ill
the looking at it and the smell of it too
so i basically have to shut my brain off and just eat
two times one in less than year
wow
my life sucks

i'm falling to pieces ( Read more... )

i started smoking again
stupid of me, but idk
i feel empty inside
i will make it though
i think i need to leave here
move somewhere new
try to start some what fresh
i feel i'm falling apart
i don't know what to do

the past couple weeks i have been stressed beyond belief ( Read more... )

idk what to do
i didn't mean for this
it's so confusing
but maybe i wouldn't have these doubts
if i was reassured a little more
and then i would have never had this problem
i shouldn't try to put the blame anyone else though
that's wrong

think twice before you act
at the moment that's what i'm trying to do
i'm very stressed right now
i hate stress
i get very bitchy and moody when i'm stressed
i hate being like that
everything is just not working!
it's all going to hell

i never really would have wanted anything like that to happen
i don't hate him
i don't hate anyone
but
what goes around comes around