I fucked up it took me 18 years and some words with a few people i look up to to realize how bad i fucked up... dont give up your dreams... never no matter what anyone says no matter how impossible it seems if you have nothing and your living on the streets at least you can say your still trying to follow your dream and you know what if you want it ( Read more... )

im chillin at the brew u online and in a decent mod from all my cash spending and of course i read something and blah i feel like shit people act like im stupid sometimes like i must be fucking retarded ugh it makes me so angry i cant even explain it i hate when people go behind my back agh ( Read more... )

ha today is a good day really i got a 90% on my first test of 15 today so that was awesome the girl isnt workin today but i dont really care i need to pee and i have some shit to buy at the store so im out late!

hmm today was quite a decent day and now im chillin in the cafe agian and yes that one girls working but its the same as last plus she has some guy friends from here already neway yesterday i phased up now im allowed out till ten or so and im allowed to wear my regular clothes on weekends mom wants me to write her letters and emails and call and ( Read more... )

today is a good day all of my friend well most are in good moods off to homecoming and what not im of of work well now... lol this morning wasnt great but hey w/e and im meeting people finally lol tonight is the airmans club dont really care to go but theres nothing really better to do so ill go to shoot pool if nothing less but im hiding from my ( Read more... )

today was a good day i got to go to medical readiness training for details this morning which basically means i got to pretend to be a wounded combatant i was deaf and leaking shit from my ears and maybe even brain damaged lol but it was cool so i slept on my strecher for about 6 hours and everything so i feel pretty good right now plus ill get ( Read more... )

hmmm I tried to call nikkii but found out she was at work... im very happy now nikkiis lj entry cheered me up bc were going to go out to eat in orlando next time i am down and that makes me happy... I miss her lots... I hope anyone having trobule gets better Ill talk to you all later *heart*

today was another shitty day prt was good this morning but then the details ALL EFFING DAY sucked and the we got briefed about how were going to be on lock down soon because of some dumb ass students who brought alcohol into the dorm and my flashlight is being gay so basically ive been doing nothing but working my ass off till now and i really want ( Read more... )

UGH!!.... TODAY SUCKS.... I worked like mad to get the laptop by today and I got it bc im just that good but now i cant use it bc the internet thingy costs money even on wireless unless im at the libary thus i will be tomorrow i woke up late today which was nice but the laundry room was hot as hell and it took 3 hours to do 3 loads and it shouldnt ( Read more... )

Today I miss Nikki.... So I'm singing to her.... but shes so far away she can't hear me.. :'(