i really want to feel comfortable. i want to be able to feel free and not anxious inside. i want to be HEATHER again. i guess i should just go home. my fear of being completely alone is getting to me, and what is even more scary is it is starting o feellike the biggest reality yet. i am nervous all the time and scared all the time. one minute i ( Read more... )

no one knows what i am thinking.
and it is all my fault.
i never remember to open my mouth.

trying to [act my age] is prooving to be difficult
i feel like i am meant to be some place else
with someone else.
and i'm stuck in a place
where no one even knows who i am
call me morbid
but i'd rather dig my eyes out than watch this any longer

The earth is hollow and so am i ( Read more... )

maybe i don't miss you.
i just miss what i thought you would bring to my life.

so publicly and shamelessly i will say i love you.
but with each passing day i'm losing it
i told you there is an edge - and i'm close.

i love you.

i can see it all in your eyes.

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Poll who would you rather

i'm going to make a new livejournal. because i don't really care if anyone knows about my life. i need a place where i can fucking write what i need to write. and everyone else can fuck off. i'm tired of trying to sugar coat the things i think, as to not hurt feelings. i no longer give a shit about anyones feelings. Fuck It. I need a place to let ( Read more... )

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
funny how she says that shit. when everytime i happen to end up somewhere that she is, she can't even stop her fat mouth from talking shit about me. and i take the high road and ignore her completely. in fact, i forget her fat ass is even there. because i don't give a fucking shit. i'm the one that likes drama huh? me and ( Read more... )

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jesus christ is there no time for rest? is there no time for happiness anymore? just give me time, and everything will work out. i don't know what i want to do yet... but i have to do something. i can't continue to feel this way and no one give a shit. not that i don't have wonderful friends or anything, but they can't help me. i know they care and ( Read more... )