oh boy..so me and Andy are hanging out tonight. he's coming over in probably about an hour or so. good idea? bad idea? idk.. i just don't want things to get fuct up again. but at least i'll get to see him.

♥.me.

you know whut really sucks? missing him, having him right there but just far enough to be out of reach. his fucking hollow words are still with me every day. it's just rediculous that i can't just let it go and not let it bother me. but i can't, it doesn't work that way. idk, it just sucks. why is it so fucking hard to hate someone that you love. ( Read more... )

he called me. he didn't leave a message tho. i was too much of a pussy to call him back tonight cuz idk whut he has to say whether it's whut i wanna hear or not. so i'll call him back tomarrow when he gets outta work. i was just too tired to do it tonight. all i wanna do is talk to him and finally figure all this shit out, have him tell me if he ( Read more... )

shit son, i am done. i'm done with highschool. as off today i am officially done. i remember my first day as a freshman and now i just got done with my last day as a senior not even a week ago. damn. it's been an interesting 4 years tho. so many good times..consequently so many bad times. but thru both i've always had my friends tho. so hamurg and ( Read more... )

tuesday - gov't.
wednesday - corp. eco.
thursday - int. algebra.
friday - photo II project.

2 down, 1 to go. photo doesn't count.

PeacE.

awesome, once again i am a fucking pussy. this makes me want to never talk to him when he's drunk again. say whut you want, cuz apparently it has no meaning when you don't remember a damn thing the next day..
but don't worry....it's not like i can feel anyways..
♥.me.

have you ever wanted something so bad, but it was always just outta your grasp where you know you will never fucking get it?

yea.

♥.me.

prom's coming up in like a week 1/2. i'm still really excited. a little stressed about how expensive it really is..but w/e. but me and cory seem to have everything for it..dress/tux, limo, tix, and so on. but i might have my period on prom, and i'm gonna be soooooo pissed if i do. not that anyone really cares about that, lol. but seriously, not on ( Read more... )

so i havn't written in a long ass time..i just havn't felt like it much to be honest. it almost seems that i've started to turn into my old self again. i've been depressed a lot lately and crashing. i think i kinda know why, but idk..i think i've just been stressed lately. and i'm just trying to deal with it. but i can't seem to do it..i just keep ( Read more... )

i need to move on. i know, and so does everyone else. im sick of always putting my heart out on the line for andy, and him just leaving it there to die..he knew. he always knew how i felt about him. for almost a year, he fucking knew. and now im done. honestly this time. it's gonna hurt, but i know this. it's gonna be so hard to let him finally go ( Read more... )