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I had a lovely night at work. I'm now home and showered. Probably going to go to bed soon, because I'm an adult like that. Or something. But first..I'm going to play "Are you smarter than a 5th grader," because I think I might be, but it never hurts to be sure. -
I'm a fucking mess.
All the time. I'm sure I drive my girlfriend crazy. She says she hasn't lost her patients for me yet. Hopefully that's true ( Read more... ) -
Not a lot to report today.
Home from work. Hanging out with Rizz. It's too quiet for my liking. I feel sad and I don't know why. She says it's because I'm worn out. Which is possible. I've been busting my ass at work the last three days. Last night I did the work of two people. Sucked so much ass. -
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Oh, God. Today. Today was mostly good. Great, even. But the last fifteen minutes were horrible. I'm just trying to do my job and my bosses won't leave me alone and let me do it. So they got on my nerves and I was pissed when I left. I was so angry I actually started to cry. And I continued being upset most of the ride home. Rizz was, of course, mad ( Read more... ) -
Home from work.
It was a rather lovely night, tonight. I'm cold and my back is aching, but I feel good. Amazing really. My life is so great sometimes. Despite the fact that Rizz was brooding all night ( Read more... ) -
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I hate being lied to.
Rizz lied to me for, as far as I know, the very first time. I know it and she knows it. I think she might even know that I know it. She started acting strange right afterwards. She keeps asking me what's wrong. I won't ever say. I'm almost sure she lied to me to spare my feelings, but even so. I absolutely hate being lied to. I'd rather end up ( Read more... ) -
Sometimes I hate the world.
I think I just want to hate something or someone. Just to justify my needless anger. So I can point at someone or something and say "That's why!" -
Another day
I'm sitting here, with Rizz. She's playing around on her phone. Again. She does that a lot. Always playing on her phone. Playing games, texting people, the occasional phone call. It gets annoying, but I suppose I'll have to learn to accept it. It's not going to go away. She has a lot of friends. Mostly she only talks to Tierra, Kayla and her exes. ( Read more... ) -
Why do I do this to myself?
Rizz gives me this horrible feeling that I can't trust her, sometimes. There's something..wrong there. I don't like it. Even when she is being nice..it feels like she's forcing it. I don't trust people, in general. But there's something else there. Like I should absolutely not trust her, because she is going to fuck me over, for sure.