I could tell you how my life is sucking really bad lately. I'm dead inside. The only thing I know for sure is that I'm afraid of the Chupacabra. I totally believe they exist. They suck the blood out of livestock with their fangs. Some don't believe they exist, for instances scientists, but please, the government has them controlled. Be afraid.

I've heard the best way to get over someone is to get under someone else, but...I like to dance really late at night/early in the morning to songs I listened to the last time I got over someone. It works well, because it reminds me that if I can get over that person with 100% success, I can get over this one too. There is hope in Amerie.

I ate a slice of turkey with cheese tonight for dinner. I'm losing it, because food is always of importance for me. I talked to Kelly Dawson tonight. She always make me feel sane again. I've started smoking and drinking every night now. If I don't do that, then I will totally lose it. I don't know if I can keep this job with the way things are ( Read more... )

I don't believe in this anymore. Now I know why people smoke, drink alone in a dark room and welcome death. Hope is such a stupid name.

I am so impulsive to quit and too impulsive to forgive and forget. I'm a poet and I don't know it. I'm single. For good. I think I needed a kick in the face for that.

My mother said I was bi-polar today. My birthday falls in between a Taurus and a Gemini. I'm starting to realize how crazy I am because I expect so much of people and still I am never satisfied. I think always being disappointed comes from being raised by a mother that was never completely satisfied with anything in her life. She called to talk ( Read more... )

Things I have figured out while I've been in the house I grew up in ( Read more... )

Patrick says I only write in here when I'm angry or sad. So, I made it into Graduate School for Library and Information Science. I'll probably be your child's elementary school librarian. That's good news I'm happy about. See there.

Alright, so I just put all my materials into the packet for grad school. Everyone cross your fingers that I get into this program. I really want to be a school librarian. I'm sending it off tomorrow. I'm a little nervous.

There is nothing worse than eating by yourself when you are actually expecting someone else to join you. You keep looking at the door thinking that every time it opens it's going to be your dinner date. You call them, but no answer. The waiter/waitress starts giving you the "I'm sorry, but they aren't showing up, honey," look on their face. You ( Read more... )