i finally have time for a real update now even though my life is so botinf lol ( Read more... )

i have been drinking since 3 this afternoon. im now 3 hours sober and on my way out to drink some more.
already got the designated driver ready if needed.

happy mother fucking birthday.

this was officially thr worst birthday ever.

tomorrow better be better.

you know your tired when you forget your birthday is tomorrow and you only get reminded cause a friend said happy birthday on myspace.

yeah hi, i turn 21 in 1 hour and 7 minutes. .

HELL FUCKING YES

i really don't know what the fuck i was thinking deciding to go to school and all. im telling you if any of my teachers are as bad as this fuckwad i have now. i am going to kill someone. i have to redo all of this weeks assignments because he didn't like my answers and on top of that i am getting points taken off once i submit them because he is ( Read more... )

sometimes i wish i didn't have to go home. seriously.

im already stressed, so is he. we take it out on each other and when its gets bad i just wanna leave and not come back.

i love him to death but sometimes it feels like why even bother.

you know what absolutely breaks my heart. out of the blue my 12 year old niece emails me. a niece i haven't spoken nor seen since 2002. she doesn't know me as her aunt jessie anymore. i am only her mom's sister. it's like im just a friend to her. and it just kills me cause that little girl used to love me as much as she loves her parents. i know i ( Read more... )

so i think i might be preggers again. im not sure cause i did just have my period 2 weeks ago but i know plenty of people who were preggers and still got their period. hell my sister had her period up until she was 6 months along. im just thinking i might be cause the past week and a half i have been feeling really na but i know plenty of people ( Read more... )

things are slowly working out. i really like having my own place again. i missed it. we finally got a computer and internet today. im so happy. what actually made us do this is because my mom wouldn't let me go over her house the other night to do my school work. yeah hi, she's a bitch. so im like fuck this, im not letting that happen again ( Read more... )

we are officially moved out of my mom's place. we moved out last night. im so happy. a couple of things are wrong with the apartment but nothing that can't be fixed. our heat doesn't work and im a little pissed about that cause it was absolutely freezing in that house. but it's all good. im just happy that we have our own place again ( Read more... )