I didn't think it would be as big a deal as I made it out to be. I think I might have convinced myself that more lines were crossed but when I look back why do I feel differently. Why do I feel like I don't know him as well as I thought? I thought we were both moving our lives in the same direction. When one of us goes off the path the other is ( Read more... )

Honestly I just want to be completely alone. I don't feel like dealing today. All i want is for the kids to play in their rooms upstairs so i can have some quiet. Just some time where I don't have to constantly hear them yelling, laughing, screaming, roaring. My ears need a break!  Sometimes the noise just gets to me ( Read more... )

 So it's been awhile. Forgot all about this thing for a few years haha. I read my old posts and got a kick out of it so I figure I should start writing again so in another few years I can look back and get a good laugh ( Read more... )

God i'm so tired. Riley has been sick the last couple of days and hayden has been, well...just his normal difficult self. I'm so exhausted. I didn't go to sleep till 12 last night and still woke up every 30 mins cause riley was cranky or hayden was getting up. I woke up 3 times last night to haydens knees in my ribs and zachs sweaty back up against ( Read more... )

I forgot about livejournal up until last night. So I haven't been on since before I left for florida ( Read more... )

Today Zach took hayden to get his haircut. Hayden was pissy and they only got like two snips in a still charged us $12 for the damn haircut. Pissed me off a little but I'm going to go back probably tuesday and see if hayden will be good and sit still for a haircut. They have this "satisfaction garentee" thing so i'll just say I wasn't satisfied ( Read more... )

So far we have alot of things planned. Hayden is going to be evaluated by an occupational therapist to see if maybe he'd benefit from therapy with them. IT would be good for his sensory issues. We'll see i guess. He's been doing really good with school. Talking alot more. Not completely clear words yet but I know what he's saying. I'm also going to ( Read more... )

So far we have alot of things planned. Hayden is going to be evaluated by an occupational therapist to see if maybe he'd benefit from therapy with them. IT would be good for his sensory issues. We'll see i guess. He's been doing really good with school. Talking alot more. Not completely clear words yet but I know what he's saying. I'm also going to ( Read more... )

well i've been back from Ohio for a while now. I'm just lazy so I haven't posted my pictures or updated. anyway..

our trip was good. We went to zach's moms house first. Its past cinncinati but only took us about 6 and half hours. There was lots of snow. I remember waking up in the car and seeing like 4 snowmen in a row and being freaked out. We ( Read more... )

I talked to my brother today. He told me what name they came up with. Abigal Iris Meadows. I'm not crazy about abigal but he said it means "fathers joy" or something like that which makes it cute. He's going to be back in florida for christmas next year with the whole little family. (if its his) It'll be fun to see him with his own kid. weird ( Read more... )