is horrible and ugly ( Read more... )

like shit.

like tomorrow may not be good news, and like im dying inside.

i had the worst migrain in the world today.

and my brain feels like it gonna explode again.

im so totally and completly in love with you.
im such an idiot for trying to give up on you too. how could i ever be so stupid as to let you go???

if you only knew how wonderful you make me feel and what you do to me.

I've changed. And i quite enjoy it. And i hope you've noticed.

Because i feel good. So let me dance.

blah blah blah. Ryan comes home next month. :D

aaand, i really really really like jon.

and i can't wait to smoke a fatty after school.

today was a good day. but the best part is that its not even over yet.

woke up at 2:30 haha. got an oil change. did some homwork. visited jon at baristas :)

now im gonna smoke e smoke.

ever. Didnt sleep last night.
got a ticket for not having a parking pass. realized i lost one of my books. all i want to do is go home and take a nap and shower but i have to go to work.

laaaaaaame

i cant believe i remembered my password. but i guess im back??

it seemed like a good idea, lets see how things go

growing up has its ups and downs. it wonderful in some ways, like meeting new people. gaining new knowledge. moving up in the work force. eventually having a family.....but sometimes its a downer. you loose friends. people get divorced. loved ones die or move away. you get older and arent able to do all the things you thought you had time for. life ( Read more... )

how come all the crazy fucked up people are always the most brilliant? honestly...Hitler, Vincent Van Gogh.....

i think its because through there eyes, they can see. i mean really see. i can see now. i havent noticed it until tonite, but i see the world in a diffrent light. im not saying im crazy like they were, but i might be ya never know. i think ( Read more... )

music is the most stimulating form of art there is.......i like that.
i like sound.
i like sound thats thought out first.
i like sound that isnt.
i like rain, and the sound of rain. the smell and the emotions that seem to fall from the sky into you as its happening.
or that constant hum of peoples voices all speaking at once. its like bumblebees. i ( Read more... )