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im sitting here, dripping wet and shaking, just had a huge b/p session and im not even sure what triggered it...not eating all day? being alone in the apartment? either way i suck, im so incredibly mad and disappointed with myself, dad gets here in2days and im f***ing huge i swear, if only i could just rip it off,honestly i just grab my sides and ( Read more... )

hey all, just back from a christmas service which was lovely but made me wanna cry?! not sure what that's all about but i had some sobbing before i left anyway so i figure maybe im just emotional...?
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hey, its been a week or so since i posted, still been reading and commenting but not really felt like i had much to say...thins are going ok but sometimes i look in the mirror and cant decide if ive lost because the fat spots arent so obvious or if they've all joined together to make one large fat coat that i cant focus on but instead get swallowed ( Read more... )

just dyed my hair brown!!!!!!!!!!!!!kind of a goodbye to blondy fatty me ( Read more... )

Howdy all, today ive unwittingly started a fast...was throwing up last night and had such a sore head that ive just said to ppl i'd rather not eat thsn feel like that again...bleuch ( Read more... )

my friend's mum died last night/early hours of the a.m.............so tragic, cancer and she's in her early40s, only had it3months :( anyway for some reason can't cry must binge was stuck in my head, couldn't shake it, tried cooking for others, watching a movie but inevitably ate...not as much as a "normal" binge for me would be but cereal and a ( Read more... )

Myth #3: The United States invented Thanksgiving ( Read more... )

hello all, been doing ok today 375 kcal, actually had the bravery to go shopping which always ends in tears but not so today...i tried on the size i thought i had ballooned to but they were miles too big!!!!!!!!!!!!!yay! went to starbucks for reflection and to write a sympathy card for my friend-had a venti americano so felt lightheaded from all ( Read more... )

360kcals yest, according to my food plan for today it'll be a 290 day today :) was in work yest and i prepare the desserts :S i know so awful, but kinda immunises u against them?! anyway, this girl i work with who's slightly overweight-she carries it well tho suggests that we share a piece of cake and i laughed and said no thanks, im trying to stay ( Read more... )