So it's been over a week now since Jason left. So far, so good. There have only been a few times I've shed some tears, but not over anything bad. It's not like I"m miserable... but when I'm sitting in the car, and I hear a song that reminds me of him, a tear or two might come out. Last night, I reread a poem he wrote me, and fell asleep crying. It' ( Read more... )

Yesterday was the worst day imaginable. But today's another day. I love my job, but sometimes it makes me wonder... can I really imagine myself sitting in this studio, year after year, stressing through the holidays, dealing with angry parents, and dealing with new staff every season? The best part of my job is the kids. I love seeing a kids eyes ( Read more... )

This morning was one of those, hard to get up mornings. The studio I work at is opening an hr. earlier, so usually I'd still be in bed.. blah =/ And to make matters worse, I was up last night, couldn't go to sleep, missing Jason like crazy again. It's so hard to fall asleep when he's not here, I guess I just got so use to it. Well tonights another ( Read more... )

Is the best =) Makes me smile from ear to ear with just an email, and he somehow does it every time. I love that man~! He always knows what to say to make my day =)

So it's been three days, and so far, not too bad. I know it'll get worse though. Last time he was gone for two weeks, and by tenth day or so, it started getting really hard. This times a little longer than two weeks tho. I guess the hardest part is going home and knowing there's nothing there but the dog, and that you can't run home, and curl up in ( Read more... )

Jason left this morning for 45 days =( Right now it's not so bad, I only cried a little on the way home this morning b/c I know I'm going to miss him so much, I always miss him when he's away, but the last thing I want to do is cry in front of him b/c I know it's harder for him, him being the one stuck on the ship. I almost did last night, we were ( Read more... )

My LO leaves tomorrow for 45 days.. maybe even longer... I'm regretting waking up, b/c then I know he has to leave for a long time *sigh* But that's life =(

So yesterday was my last day of vacation... it went by too fast~! I so enjoyed a stress free vacation with Jason, and now I get to look forward to drama, hopefully it's all over, and Jason going back to the ship on Monday morning, nope not looking forward to that at all. I miss him so much when he's gone, and I know I'm sad already, but that's b/c ( Read more... )

And it was such a blast =) it was so pretty out there, and Jason's family was awesome, and the weather.. perfect =) Everything was a blast... about time I had a fun vacation.. pics coming soon, on my myspace account =) Now I'm exhausted, going to take a nap~!

This time tomorrow morning, I'll be waking up in Ohio =) I can't wait to see everything?!?! I'm too excited hehehehehe