127.2

well thats interesting mandy.

i havent weighed myself in a month or so.

now im depressed.

happy fucking birthday to me, fatass.

im sorry i make you feel like shit.

i feel like crying afterwords. you dont understand. nobody will ever really understand whats wrong with me because i cant even begin to explain it.

im going to go to sleep now and i really hope i dont wake up.

im not cut out for any of this.
someone made a mistake.

All the lace and the skin in the shop ( Read more... )

ya know, im a giving person. i dont like getting things. i dont feel i deserve it ( Read more... )

i just finished reading jodi picoults book handle with care. its probably the first book that has ever made me feel like my lifes not that bad and to not be so ungrateful ( Read more... )

I even met somebody who I thought would be the one ( Read more... )

im doubting everything i thought i ever wanted to become and what i wanted to do with my life ( Read more... )

the way i feel right now could never be explained in this. its not something i can write about. youd have to feel it ( Read more... )

this is a little bit too much right now.
i cant deal with myself
im going crazy. i feel my fucking head going crazy.

i dont know what to do for myself anymore

i was FINE.
i was doing okay and everything was fine.
what the fuck happened?

i was fine and its not fair.