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i want to fast today. But i woke up hungry... Dunno what's up with that. 
So i'm trying to figure out my work out schedule today.
Hmm, i think i'll leave around 11:15 to walk for an hr... Then after class probably 3:30 I'll work out for 3 hrs. ehh, that will put me at 6:30 and i might have to be somewhere at that time.
I dont think i have time to swim ( Read more... )

Ohhh, bother.
I keep dreaming about Adam... god i miss him.
I've got to get myself right so I can see him.
I mean, we barely know each other, but i can always tell from the get-go of a relationship how serious i will take it.
With him, i could love him.

So anyway, I got pickels today [zesty] and the label said ZERO calories, HA! Yeh, OKAY! Why cant ( Read more... )

So all i've had is some icecream and a few fat free pretzels at around 11 or so this morning. And i am STUFFED. I feel sick. I still have the icecream and i get sick just looking at it. It makes me want to puke. I didnt consume that much. So it's weird, but dairy does that to me, fills me up.

My stomach/heart is also hurting. Mostly my stomach. I ( Read more... )

Still havent cleaned my room =[

And i messed up my internet... I clicked something on my virus protection and now my webpages wont come up unless virus protection is turned off. Great.

Plus I had icecream. It was fat free/sugar free. But i feel sick now. I really dont want to spend anymore money on food. But who knows?

I've done a good job of not ( Read more... )

Mission to clean my ROOM!
It's been a disaster for way too long.

Not horrible but since i dont eat in front of ppl, i have trash all over the place. Not food bc it has all been consumed. Just the packages...and i want it OUT.

Well today was...something. I woke up around 11am... meant to get up at 7 but w/e. I studied from 11 til 6:30pm when i had my test. I was on campus that entire time...and had nothing at all to drink or eat. Ha, and it really wasnt that difficult bc i was trying to study and worried about my test.
Then test time, my stomach is rumbling SO freaking ( Read more... )

Ha... new goal, or so i'd like to think. Though it's easier now, at night, when i am stuffed beyond full.
So here is my tentative goal:

Fast ATLEAST til Sunday. No Food. Water only.
Get rid of my scale-til Sunday.

I've heard that quitting the obsessive weigh-ins will help the weight loss, well it doesnt. I've been there before i've gone without ( Read more... )

My gosh, i'm embarrassed and completely morbidly HUGE. I've gained back so much weight over the past 2, 3 days. SO much. I'm almost my HIGHEST weight ever.
Well ok, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but not much.

I cant believe how bad i suck.
So yesterday, i tried on these pants [size 16] thinking..ha these should be huge bc i was around 165 or so ( Read more... )

So my plan was go to my parents wake up early and go to my Y that i have a membership at. So i wake up...dont get out of bed until 40 min later, but that's ok... SO i get to the Y and guess what? The pool is CLOSED til 11AM. HA! And i had to leave by 11:30 to get to class... So i walked the track maybe 10 min then said fuck it and left.
Bc it's all ( Read more... )