It's weird how I can relate to a serial killer. Of course I'm talking about the show Dexter and it's not the killing I relate to but it's Dexter himself and the way he feels about him self. He doesn't quite fit in, he doesn't know who he is. He has to hid the true him. That's how I feel. It's just a show but damn it's right on the mark for me. I ( Read more... )

Boy oh boy, a few years ago if someone told me this was going to be my life, I wouldn't have believed them. Everytime I think things are going to work out for me, everything gets fucked up. I just wonder how long before I break, before I can't take anymore. I wonder if the feeling of being completely alone ever goes away. I even when you're not ( Read more... )

For a long time I was in love ( Read more... )

Oh... well... hello there. So I am in the process of moving the hell out of my house. I was hoping to buy a house but I don't think I'm there yet. Buying a house is so freakin complicated! So Efrain and I are looking at apartments. Hell I'd live in a cardboard box if it got me out of my house. Hopefully this is going to be happening in the next few ( Read more... )

So, I'd say it's been more than a little while since I've posted. Haha, reading these old posts are quite amusing and little scary. It's funny to see how I used to be and how back then everything seemed like the end of the world. I'm little bit older now and hopefully have more of a different perspective now. It's funny reading about things that I ( Read more... )

arghhhhhhgurrglearggghhhhhhhh...... Frustration. When I stop being frustrated with one person, I get frustrated with someone else. Not to mention I'm so damn frustrated with myself. I need to like runaway somewhere for like awhile. Hah, I wish. Ugh, I'm so tired I got exactly 2 and a half hours of sleep, then I had to died an hour to wheaton and ( Read more... )

yo yo yo yo yo, so yeah I guess can say it's been a while, I looong ass while. I honestly can't give a good reason why I haven't updated, I just haven't felt like it. :/ i do kinda miss this though after all, Andrea was right, which isn't often, just joking :) Anyway, this post is for her. Anyway, gosh, so much has gone on lately, I'm still with ( Read more... )

Hello all. Just trying keep this thing semi-updated. Anyways, everything is so far going okay for me. My depression has been coming back more frequently lately. I'm thinking of maybe getting back on my anti-depressants again, but I don't really want to have to. I just hate being like this. Um, work was going good until lately. I just hate when my ( Read more... )

Aren't these just the cutest things that ya ever did see?!


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Here are long awaited pictures of me and my boyfriend. The scanned pictures didn't turn out the greatest but it's better than nothing. No laughing:


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