Hello. It's been over a year since my last post. I'm still alive to my surprise. A lot has changed and a lot hasn't. A lot has reverted back to what I used to be, and in some respects not enough. I finally got what I wanted, a normal life. Friends, regular job, a girlfriend, all the staples of a normal life. But it turns out I'm still unfulfilled ( Read more... )

I'm still alive. I figure I must have lost about two pints of blood. I don't know if thats a lot but whatever. It was almost enough for me to give up conciousness. Anyway, New York Comic Con. It may not be the hotspot that SD is but it's a closer possibility for me. The fact is all I wanna do is see you guys. I remember back in 01,I was so happy to ( Read more... )

I have been losing a lot of blood in the last two hours. Drinking to dull the pain isn't helping. It's just causing my blood to thin, which is causing more blood loss from wounds. I'm an idiot for trying that. Hands are covered in blood, clothes are covered in blood. The floor is starting to be covered by blood. Paper towels and tape won't hold ( Read more... )

I had recently posted a journal entry a few days ago. But damage control had deleted it, supposedly in my best intrest. But upon rereading in tonight I realized it wasn't that bad. Here's the gist of it. I paid my parents 3 month late cable bill so I could remain online. I'm still in the process of trying to get a hotel for SD. I hope a lot of ( Read more... )

Hey. I guess it's time for a monthly update with a numbered scale. But there won't be one, at least not a standard one. Have you ever had something in the back of your head that you couldn't grasp, couldn't put you finger on? I have for a while. I just couldn't remember what it was. But I finally did Thursday. I'm so happy about it too. I almost ( Read more... )

So I finally went to the doctor. There goes more money I don't have. They don't know what's wrong. Not that I thought they would. They took blood and are running tests. I get the results next week. After that I don't know whats going to happen. At least I got a prescription. Hopefully it'll dull or stop the pain. I just need something fucking ( Read more... )

Hey. Monthly update is as follows ( Read more... )

Hello there. I know it's not the end of the month but I wanted to do a monthly update. My new years resolution was essentially to do what I intended last year. Aspect one was to make a change physically in this body. That seems to be going halfway decently so far even though my health is not at the level that I want. Aspect two is in creativity. I ( Read more... )

I made the decision after a year of hell to change back to the way things used to be. Positive. You can't help people who don't want your help I found. In all actuality they don't deserve my help. They deserve death, in my opinion. I could actually have an ordered death list. But that's so 1998 Wizard Press. It's not my decision anyway to decide ( Read more... )

Hello. To get to the point, Anyone know when the next SD sign up for hotels is, and what hotels you guys are aspiring for? It may be early, I usualy get a post card in January but I just felt like inquiring. Thanks for the assistance.