I haven't updated this thing in like..... twelve years. Not that i think anyone is reading it, which i suppose is good. i hate everything about school. I no longer have an ties to the high school or any people there. i'm tired always and i feel like its not worth it to try. i shouldve made friends with people in my class when i was a freshman, this ( Read more... )

 summers almost over, im slightly freaking out. i haven't done any of my summer reading yet. not that it's a big deal i ususally get it done  but it's just crazy. i have never not been ready for school by august i usually accept the fact that it's coming but i am nottttt ready or ok with going back. this summer has been so weird and crazy but ( Read more... )

i  feel like yelling at someone right now. and instead of actually doing it, i figured i'd do it here so it can be x'd out of. i hate being surrounded by fake people. i see people how i want to see them and then get pissed when they aren't the way i thought. how fucked up is that. i meet someone new and i get infatuated with them and then im like ( Read more... )

 so i decided. when i have no friends, i write in my livejournal. like its my friend or something ( Read more... )

 I haven't updated in so long. But I'm going to come back with my theory on friends.

Friends are disposable, and you don't really need them. You probably shouldn't trust anyone, andddd you can only rely on you. If you remember this you'll be all set.

well that was satisfying. 

 I'm going to start updating again. i know nobody reads this so it really doesn't matter. lets talk about hypocrisy real quick. i can't STAND hypocritcs. yet, its in my face 24/7. my dad has to be the biggest hypocrite idk even know if im spelling that right. but fuck it.  he calls me argumentative, only because i call him on his BULLSHIT. yet i ( Read more... )

 it's been a while. volleyball is almost over and im so excited. its been such a difficult season. i quit my job. it feels good. im really going to miss the money for now. i needed it though i was spread sooo thin. punkin chunkin is over! im sooo happy. its like a huge weight lifted. school suckkkks. but what can you do. things seem to be getting ( Read more... )

i really just want  to bitch again. but i've been doing so good with not updating and being annoying so im going to try and keep that going.

i will say. that i do not like anything in my life right now. not one thing.

 I can't handle everything that is going on lately. I am being pulled in so many different directions and I dont know where my priorities are. Everyone is telling me what is most important and they are all different things. I can't focus fully on any of my classes because they are all demanded so much. Im spread so thin all the time. Volleyball.. ( Read more... )

 i am so weird right now. i hate school already but i love weekends too much. i'm working. every weekend. but after i work i want to go out. so i neglect my work. im seriously not doing any work this year. the most important one. its terrible. i need to be over this. i love driving. its amazing. i love driving and doing things and having money. i ( Read more... )