fics i wrote in 2015
fics i wrote in 2015
Total number of stories worked on: 14
Total number of completed stories: 7 (8 if you include one chapter of a WIP)
Fandoms written in: Figure skating, EXO, f(x), Infinite, Lovelyz, SHINee, SNSD, Super Junior
Total word count: 71 439 words
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January
Untitled
figure skating, michael christian martinez/yuzuru hanyu, 557 words (for baoxiu for skating clique's secret santa)
Words I Kept
snsd/super junior, ryeowook/yoona, 1,381 words (for kpop-het)
February
Come Into My Heart
figure skating, alex shibutani/denis ten, 4,131 words (for kametoahiru for skating clique's valentine exchange)
March
Stay, Like an Endless Promise [ LJ | AO3]
snsd, yoona-centric; jessica/yoona friendship, 24,775 words (for kpop_olymfics)
April
May
Because I Couldn’t Forget
figure skating, alex shibutani/denis ten, 3,253 words (dedicated to kametoahiru)
June
July
August
A Moment to be Real [ LJ | AO3]
f(x)/shinee, luna/minho, 16,950 words (written for kpop_ficmix)
September
Requiem for a Dream [ LJ | AO3]
exo/f(x), krystal/lay, 17,031 words (written for thegameseason)
October
November
December
It's a Love Story Chapter 1 [ LJ | AO3]
infinite/lovelyz, sunggyu/woohyun; baby soul/mijoo, 3,361 words (1 chapter out of ???)
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Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted?
I guess more, since I wasn't exactly expecting to write anything at all. I was planning to stick to beta-reading, but .... hahaha. I also took part in a few exchanges, which sort of challenged my commitment to deadlines and quality.
What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?
I never expected to actually want to write about Infinite but look what happened.
What's your own favorite story of the year?
Requiem for a Dream or Stay Like an Endless Promise. With Requiem, I've been meaning to write more Yixing/Krystal since I'm pretty much the only one who sees their appeal. And I feel like this is the most self-indulgent one I ever did since it mixed two fandoms, figure skating and Kpop. As for Stay, I've been wanting to write something that meant something to the SNSD fandom and the prompt I chose kind of lined up with when Jessica left. I rarely write canon, and seeing that this fic may have touched some nerves, I honestly think it's a good thing.
Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?
Writing in canon. I've always been the AU girl, so trying to write canon was definitely out of my comfort zone. Oh and writing something above 20,000 words. I don't think I can do any more than that for now, since I feel like I'm running out of words.
Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year?
Try showing more and telling less. And definitely making character's feelings more convincing. Write something that isn't trash
My goals from last year were: not met, sad to say
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From my past year of writing, what was…
My best story of this year: How do I quantify this? I don't even know if I had any good stories this year. I'm not sure what people like best, but if I had to choose, I think it's Stay, Like an Endless Promise.
My most popular story of this year: Was there even any that was popular? /sigh/
Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: A Moment to be Real, since the person whose fic I remixed didn't even leave any comment... not even to say it sucks.
Most fun story to write: Come into My Heart was written when I was letting out some stress during a rough day in the office. I was feeling kind of loopy and I watched a B1A4 MV, and the rest just came naturally. I was giggling while typing the thing.
Story with the single sexiest moment: None. I can't write sexy stuff
Most “Holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story: Because I Can't Forget. I made someone commit suicide for god's sake. In my defense, I was having a really shitty week at work and Trisha was requesting for angst!
Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: Stay Like an Endless Promise, Words I Kept, and A Moment to be Real. But honestly, everything I write introduces a new side of the idol to me, changing my perception of them each time. In these cases, these three stories made me see that they're as complex as every human out there, with different things motivating them to do what they would.
Hardest story to write: A Moment to be Real and Stay Like an Endless Promise. These two were difficult in the sense that they forced me to dig deep into my characters' psyche. I had to tell myself a thousand times that I was the character rather than someone interpreting them as I wrote. I ended up carrying the feelings I thought my characters should feel even when the documents for these fics weren't open. Though recently, It's a Love Story is becoming challenging, since I'm having difficulty writing romance, which I can't say I've fully experienced.
Biggest disappointment: A Moment to be Real definitely disappointed me. I feel like I wasn't able to explore the negative feelings Luna had about being repressed enough. I feel as if I wasn't able to do such a complex character like her justice. The feelings she has are difficult to explain and I feel like I failed her. And maybe I feel this way since my remixee never let me know what she thought of the story.
Biggest surprise: The fact that I actually volunteered for more than one fic event. :)) And I never expected to meet so many incredible writers and friends who are willing to brainstorm with me and discuss all sorts of headcanon.
Most unintentionally telling story: Either Stay Like an Endless Promise, Words I Kept, or Because I Couldn't Forget. With Stay, I guess it wasn't purely unintentional as the point was to see what made Yoona (and the rest of SNSD) want Jessica out of the group. But then my own ideas of what could have happened and how Yoona would have felt kind of brought themselves to life. As for the other two, they were rather telling of my lack of belief in happy endings and how jaded I've become. Now I think about it, It's a Love Story is kind of telling since it reveals so many aspects of my university life back then and I'm drawing from my own experiences to write this one xD
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Highlights
Favourite Opening Lines (3):
1. “Just tell him already!”
2. Denis taps his foot on the door as he waits for someone to answer. Maybe no one’s home. Maybe he doesn’t have to do this today. He can always come some other time. In the same breath, he thinks that it will be an awful waste of his time if no one’s home. After all, he flew all this way just to come and see someone who isn’t even there. Just as he is about to turn back and leave, he hears a voice call out his name.
3. Yixing pinches himself as he skates into the rink at the Gangneung Ice Arena. As the announcer calls his name, he hears the crowd roar and the applause that comes with it. Coach Im gently pats him on the back before he skates to the center of the rink. He lets out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding as some members of the audience wave their flags and banners with his name and face on them.
Favourite Closing Lines (3):
1. It's because she's already dead.
2. “It’s something we will do together until the end, into our new world”
3. “Did you know that once upon a time, I loved you too?”
Favorite 5 Line(s) from Anywhere:
1. Besides, he also can’t say no to Coach Im’s promise of authentic Korean fried chicken.
2. “English is hard, Soojung!” Yixing groans at her as he slumps against the wall. “Unlike you, I don’t get it that much. I’d rather not speak it if I can get away with it!”
3. “That’s it, Yixing? You don’t go out because you don’t like speaking English?”
4. “I…” Ryeowook hesitates. Yoona notices that he’s biting his tongue. It’s a habit he does when he’s not sure if he wants to say something. “I’ve already found her, but she’s never loved me back.”
5. “Weird ideas? Like what? Actually falling in love with you?”
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In Conclusion: This was the year wherein I really questioned my writing skills, and I realized how lacking I am. I rarely admit this, but there are several times that I've wanted to give up writing completely since I have those funks where I believe I'll never be good enough. Honestly, if it wasn't for you guys, I might have completely quit ages ago. I want to improve my writing, but I have no idea where to begin or how to go about it. It's hard to want to write for myself since I was trained (and paid) to write for others more. I think I'm stuck in one of my funks and at this point, I honestly just want to take down everything I've written and re-write them all to something better... but we all know that will never happen since I'm too lazy to do that. Maybe one day, I'll learn to love my writing the way a normal person would, but... sigh...
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friends' reviews:
- slashedsilver: here
- naladot: here
- kalopsia: here
- thunggyu: here
- onyu: here
- darkyulate: here
Total number of stories worked on: 14
Total number of completed stories: 7 (8 if you include one chapter of a WIP)
Fandoms written in: Figure skating, EXO, f(x), Infinite, Lovelyz, SHINee, SNSD, Super Junior
Total word count: 71 439 words
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January
Untitled
figure skating, michael christian martinez/yuzuru hanyu, 557 words (for baoxiu for skating clique's secret santa)
Words I Kept
snsd/super junior, ryeowook/yoona, 1,381 words (for kpop-het)
February
Come Into My Heart
figure skating, alex shibutani/denis ten, 4,131 words (for kametoahiru for skating clique's valentine exchange)
March
Stay, Like an Endless Promise [ LJ | AO3]
snsd, yoona-centric; jessica/yoona friendship, 24,775 words (for kpop_olymfics)
April
May
Because I Couldn’t Forget
figure skating, alex shibutani/denis ten, 3,253 words (dedicated to kametoahiru)
June
July
August
A Moment to be Real [ LJ | AO3]
f(x)/shinee, luna/minho, 16,950 words (written for kpop_ficmix)
September
Requiem for a Dream [ LJ | AO3]
exo/f(x), krystal/lay, 17,031 words (written for thegameseason)
October
November
December
It's a Love Story Chapter 1 [ LJ | AO3]
infinite/lovelyz, sunggyu/woohyun; baby soul/mijoo, 3,361 words (1 chapter out of ???)
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Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you’d predicted?
I guess more, since I wasn't exactly expecting to write anything at all. I was planning to stick to beta-reading, but .... hahaha. I also took part in a few exchanges, which sort of challenged my commitment to deadlines and quality.
What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January?
I never expected to actually want to write about Infinite but look what happened.
What's your own favorite story of the year?
Requiem for a Dream or Stay Like an Endless Promise. With Requiem, I've been meaning to write more Yixing/Krystal since I'm pretty much the only one who sees their appeal. And I feel like this is the most self-indulgent one I ever did since it mixed two fandoms, figure skating and Kpop. As for Stay, I've been wanting to write something that meant something to the SNSD fandom and the prompt I chose kind of lined up with when Jessica left. I rarely write canon, and seeing that this fic may have touched some nerves, I honestly think it's a good thing.
Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them?
Writing in canon. I've always been the AU girl, so trying to write canon was definitely out of my comfort zone. Oh and writing something above 20,000 words. I don't think I can do any more than that for now, since I feel like I'm running out of words.
Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the new year?
Try showing more and telling less. And definitely making character's feelings more convincing. Write something that isn't trash
My goals from last year were: not met, sad to say
☆ ☆ ☆
From my past year of writing, what was…
My best story of this year: How do I quantify this? I don't even know if I had any good stories this year. I'm not sure what people like best, but if I had to choose, I think it's Stay, Like an Endless Promise.
My most popular story of this year: Was there even any that was popular? /sigh/
Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: A Moment to be Real, since the person whose fic I remixed didn't even leave any comment... not even to say it sucks.
Most fun story to write: Come into My Heart was written when I was letting out some stress during a rough day in the office. I was feeling kind of loopy and I watched a B1A4 MV, and the rest just came naturally. I was giggling while typing the thing.
Story with the single sexiest moment: None. I can't write sexy stuff
Most “Holy crap, that’s wrong, even for you” story: Because I Can't Forget. I made someone commit suicide for god's sake. In my defense, I was having a really shitty week at work and Trisha was requesting for angst!
Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: Stay Like an Endless Promise, Words I Kept, and A Moment to be Real. But honestly, everything I write introduces a new side of the idol to me, changing my perception of them each time. In these cases, these three stories made me see that they're as complex as every human out there, with different things motivating them to do what they would.
Hardest story to write: A Moment to be Real and Stay Like an Endless Promise. These two were difficult in the sense that they forced me to dig deep into my characters' psyche. I had to tell myself a thousand times that I was the character rather than someone interpreting them as I wrote. I ended up carrying the feelings I thought my characters should feel even when the documents for these fics weren't open. Though recently, It's a Love Story is becoming challenging, since I'm having difficulty writing romance, which I can't say I've fully experienced.
Biggest disappointment: A Moment to be Real definitely disappointed me. I feel like I wasn't able to explore the negative feelings Luna had about being repressed enough. I feel as if I wasn't able to do such a complex character like her justice. The feelings she has are difficult to explain and I feel like I failed her. And maybe I feel this way since my remixee never let me know what she thought of the story.
Biggest surprise: The fact that I actually volunteered for more than one fic event. :)) And I never expected to meet so many incredible writers and friends who are willing to brainstorm with me and discuss all sorts of headcanon.
Most unintentionally telling story: Either Stay Like an Endless Promise, Words I Kept, or Because I Couldn't Forget. With Stay, I guess it wasn't purely unintentional as the point was to see what made Yoona (and the rest of SNSD) want Jessica out of the group. But then my own ideas of what could have happened and how Yoona would have felt kind of brought themselves to life. As for the other two, they were rather telling of my lack of belief in happy endings and how jaded I've become. Now I think about it, It's a Love Story is kind of telling since it reveals so many aspects of my university life back then and I'm drawing from my own experiences to write this one xD
☆ ☆ ☆
Highlights
Favourite Opening Lines (3):
1. “Just tell him already!”
2. Denis taps his foot on the door as he waits for someone to answer. Maybe no one’s home. Maybe he doesn’t have to do this today. He can always come some other time. In the same breath, he thinks that it will be an awful waste of his time if no one’s home. After all, he flew all this way just to come and see someone who isn’t even there. Just as he is about to turn back and leave, he hears a voice call out his name.
3. Yixing pinches himself as he skates into the rink at the Gangneung Ice Arena. As the announcer calls his name, he hears the crowd roar and the applause that comes with it. Coach Im gently pats him on the back before he skates to the center of the rink. He lets out a breath he didn’t realize he was holding as some members of the audience wave their flags and banners with his name and face on them.
Favourite Closing Lines (3):
1. It's because she's already dead.
2. “It’s something we will do together until the end, into our new world”
3. “Did you know that once upon a time, I loved you too?”
Favorite 5 Line(s) from Anywhere:
1. Besides, he also can’t say no to Coach Im’s promise of authentic Korean fried chicken.
2. “English is hard, Soojung!” Yixing groans at her as he slumps against the wall. “Unlike you, I don’t get it that much. I’d rather not speak it if I can get away with it!”
3. “That’s it, Yixing? You don’t go out because you don’t like speaking English?”
4. “I…” Ryeowook hesitates. Yoona notices that he’s biting his tongue. It’s a habit he does when he’s not sure if he wants to say something. “I’ve already found her, but she’s never loved me back.”
5. “Weird ideas? Like what? Actually falling in love with you?”
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In Conclusion: This was the year wherein I really questioned my writing skills, and I realized how lacking I am. I rarely admit this, but there are several times that I've wanted to give up writing completely since I have those funks where I believe I'll never be good enough. Honestly, if it wasn't for you guys, I might have completely quit ages ago. I want to improve my writing, but I have no idea where to begin or how to go about it. It's hard to want to write for myself since I was trained (and paid) to write for others more. I think I'm stuck in one of my funks and at this point, I honestly just want to take down everything I've written and re-write them all to something better... but we all know that will never happen since I'm too lazy to do that. Maybe one day, I'll learn to love my writing the way a normal person would, but... sigh...
☆ ☆ ☆
friends' reviews:
- slashedsilver: here
- naladot: here
- kalopsia: here
- thunggyu: here
- onyu: here
- darkyulate: here