I rolled my pick up
I rolled my grand am this time last year
only a couple weeks apart

I'm not a bad driver, I promise
even Derek says so

it's just ice
apparently I can't drive on it
and pick ups are really light so the wind grabbed it

I called Derek crying hysterically
he loves me
he's stayed with me a lot lately

I want to move south
really, really bad
icey ( Read more... )

I love Derek :]

forever.

I'm not as good of a person as I could be ( Read more... )

my job at applebees has completely changed me, in a good way
I have people skills
it's good to get out of the house because all I'd been doing was sitting at my house and being lonely
it's just not healthy to never leave your house
I was guarding myself
I need friends

I voted
and my vote was heard
it's a crazy good feeling to have your vote heard
to know ( Read more... )

my anxiety, depression, anger issues (I snap!), making assumptions, jumping to conclusions, having a bad out look on life and constantly thinking when my boyfriend isn't talking to me he's cheating on me..... has ruined my relationship. yeah, it's finally happened. I knew he couldnt put up with it, he's not that type of guy. I dont think he'll take ( Read more... )

wow, it's been quite awhile since I've written in here ( Read more... )

my anxiety is ruining my relationship.
anxiety and depression have always affected my life,
but never to the point of ruining relationships.
something needs to change.
not the medication I take,
because it doesn't matter what drugs I take,
I will always suffer from anxiety.
I just need to learn to cope better.
I can't lose him because of this.
I love him,
he ( Read more... )

I want to buy a farm,
and have friends live with me to help pay bills.

how realistic is that within the next couple years?
I'm serious people, I want estimates.

I'm saving money up right now working for my dad.
and next month my horse will be paid for completely so I wouldn't have ANY other payments.

this is an ultimate dream of mine.

I want to go to school next year to be a vet tech. although, just tonight I was talking to my mom about this and she doesn't see how that could be possible. buzzkill, seriously.
she says, "how are you going to pay for that? and rent? and books?"
"student loans, duh" she goes on to make me feel like shit by saying, "we make too much money for you to ( Read more... )

I lost a friend tonight.
to immaturity, stupidity and sleeping around.
I just found out the person she is and it completely breaks my heart.
she also stabbed another (GOOD) friend of mine in the back by doing all this stuff.

I'm so upset.
and I miss my boyfriend<333

on another note:
I don't drink anymore, at all.
I've officially realized it's pointless.
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