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will you whisper my name?
wishing so very much for intimacy right now ( Read more... ) -
voice
i said no a million times ( Read more... ) -
struggling
i feel like talking but no one to talk to in my life that i can share this kind of things. don't really feel like typing, but this is all i got... here in the land of anonymity. let's see... i never updated that last post about the breast lump. i had a lump the size of a good sized grape. results came back from biopsy and it was benign. ( Read more... ) -
life is tough...
I'm not sure how to put this to words, so I'm just going to let my fingers type what comes. I'm 35. That's relatively young still with current lifespans in our country. But I feel like I'm dying. I've probably experienced more than most at my age. I have so much to say and yet I feel constrained not to say it, even in a journal that I have ( Read more... ) -
Transitions
Well... I can't believe I've made it this far. In february we bid on our first house. Through a horrific loan process since then we are only just now getting a clear to close. The house will need a lot of rehab work to move in, but should be nice when finished. Unfortunately since the loan took so long to complete... The lease already ended on ( Read more... ) -
I am still alive!
Man I can't count how many times i've meant to update and haven't... or just checked in but didn't write details. and this is yet another one. but here is the really quick update- i am still alive. i am mostly doing well. marriage is going well (much better than previous years!) tho sex time is rare cuz i can't seem to get lil guy to sleep ( Read more... ) -
Health
So today I had follow up on my colonoscopy. Good news is I don't have bid, chron's, ulcerative colitis or cancer... Only nonspecific colitis. They think chronic constipation brought it on, which I've had since i was young, so why the issues suddenly at 32? Basically I was told it's probably stress and not enough fiber, so I need to eat more ( Read more... ) -
near and far
A lil song lyrics I wrote today, don't have a melody for it per se, but inspired but what I felt in our marriage all these years when we were having trouble connecting. Thankfully we are doing better than we were and still walking the path to become the best we can at this thing called marriage. Song is called 'Near and Far ( Read more... ) -
a short update
"not another crisis, my schedule is full ( Read more... ) -
Platelet Counts
Well, I've decided to keep track of Kieran's platelet counts all in one spot... so this post will remain at the top of my journal for a while. I just don't want to lose the data in the midst of all my other posts... so this post will be updated every time anything significant occurs. Here we go on the journey:
10-16-08 got Hepatitis A vaccine ( ( Read more... )