Blah blah blah. Order. Schedule. Blah blah blah

[mariz]

I think I need to create some order in my life. I remember thinking this way at what turned out to be the beginning of this illness

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[sixshadesofgrey]

I just wanted to give you hugs....

*HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS HUGS*
<3

[mariz]

***hugs*** to you too, sweetie. thanks so much!!!

and, guess what washed my hair with only 10 days between 3 times in a row! I'm sure that grosses you out. sorry.

[lydiajen]

I just posted something to a friend, that perhaps I should post in my own journal...I'm actually getting sick of trying to be healthy because I've been trying for so long, I just don't feel like trying anymore. Does that make any sense to you

[sixshadesofgrey]

I just wanted to comment on the shower phobia thing cus I had the same thing for awhile.. I have vasovagal syncope episodes and most of them occured in the shower.. and for awhile I was scared to shower when home alone in fear I'd collapse in the shower! I actually would bring the cordless phone in the bathroom just in case.. Anyway.. I have managed that problem.. It was the humidity and heat that was triggerring my fainting episodes, so I either open a window (which the bathroom in my old apt didn;t have) or I keep on the A/C and leave the door open and have a fan to blow cool air in. I know none of this would probably help you cus your situation is totally different, but I figured I'd let you know I understand the shower issues :) And look, I just ranted in someone else;s journal again

[lydiajen]

"It really isnt a matter of "trying".. It's what my body will LET me do on any given day. Does that make sense?"

Yes, that makes sense and maybe it's how it needs to be for us CFS, Fibro, etc., type of people.

I guess some of us get stuck in this mentality of thinking if we "try hard enough" or "try more of this, or more of that" that it will some improve things.

I have a tendancy of "trying" various things that are supposed to make me better, then mentally beating myself up when I fail. I know I need to learn how to get over this or accept my failures as not my fault but the fault of my illnesses or else I might go mad.

[mariz]

I know what you mean. For some time now I've been much better at accepting my limitations. So, my the problem now is getting other people to accept my limitations. A neighbor I hardly know was lecturing me last week about this. What a bitch!!