I want a life so badly. But how to get it when I'm bed bound or housebound so much of the time.  Correction, that should be "apartment bound ( Read more... )

i've been in a terrible mood for months. and miserable. i WILL NOT take this non-existent life much longer. I refuse. my fahter is a mother fuckin asshole. he is what will drive me to death. and it will not be soon enough!

Clearly, it is time for me to make some changes since whatever it is i've been doing is not going so well.  I just wish i knew what to change of the things that it is possible for me to change ( Read more... )

each day is a battlefield, not just a battle ( Read more... )

reminded by the bran muffin recipe kindly posted by another

I need info.

info from my doc.

then try something....

diet?
candida?

why not try that next?

get rid of the yeast infection.

That might help?

I cannot do this any more.

I’m scared.

period.

sick and scared.

and I no longer feel like I know how to socialize.

I used to jabber on the phone for hours and hours.

Now I have nothing to say.

After more than 5.5 years of illness and isolation I guess that isn’t surprising.

but I need to learn to chit chat.

so I can find a roommate.

or a man.

I’m scared.

I'm really sick today (thank you father for being the trigger for this, you mother fucking asshole), however, I was reminded about 2 good things about me ( Read more... )

Be bigger ( Read more... )

i'm scared all the time about what will happen to me.  i live with my elderly father and while he doesn't do much he does some and that some is a big deal.  and i don't really have any friends left. at least none where i live ( Read more... )

    I love NY. Love the energy. Love the diversity. Love so much about it.  Yet I left it after college because I knew I couldn't afford it ( Read more... )