so on saturday i displayed myself for complete strangers to see, i cried and screamed about how genuinly scared i really am. i was a child. i am so ashamed ( Read more... )

oki a lush, yes
but the lust has been lacking in my life for awhile...damnit...

anyways im still kinda hungover and im really emo and stuff but i hide it with a spontaneous superficiality that would normally make me quiver with realization that i ladies and gentlmen are nothing more than a fool and a fake.

and ive doubled my dosage of meds, yucky

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is cruelty any less sadistic if you do it with a smile?

masochists dance in wedding dresses made of razors and roses, kiss the bride and taste genuine contemption.

i wish there was a sky where stars didnt fall and beautiful women didnt rot in unmarked graves with drunken smiles on their painted faces.

i almost died and yet no one truly cared.

maybe i should've died...would it have mattered?

maybe...i suppose we'll never know will we? honestly, i dont think you do. none of you do. and that is perfectly okay. i dont blame you.

masochist ( Read more... )

i should just kill myself, not for you and not to make you feel bad...i just dont ever want to let you down, i wish i could go to last january when things were okay.

fuck it.

"to fall in love and fall in debt..."

those words were never more true. analyze all day long, go ahead try it. hurts after awhile doesnt it?

i miss drew, but i dont think he's coming back...

all appologies to my star, ive been bitchy to you...you understand how it is though and i promise it'll pass.

and now onto the real issue at hand..........

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im lost for words ( Read more... )