I saw a child squirt milk over a bench today, and it was enough to activate my gag reflex. I was glad I hadn't eaten anything today

Only this morning does it occur to me that I'd be a worse teacher if I was dead, and therefore if my job contributed to my suicide I should quit my job before I die.

What do I do with these feelings? Last night I'm on this ghost tour, trying something new, getting out and that. I'm so sad I weep silently hoping no-one will notice as they will be annoyed crying here. I mean seriously What am I supposed to do with these feelings?

Sitting in my classroom trying to mark mock papers fighting through the tears which is smudging the ink. Nothing's changed in 10 years.

The three ‘planning thoughts of suicide ( Read more... )

If I don’t check my thoughts, or confirm it with some evidence of another perspective then I always interrupt it as negative, that is a process I exist in ( Read more... )

The key here is identifying the self-attacking thoughts eg ( Read more... )

A man once told me that he thought my drinking was 'political ( Read more... )

Laid on the floor of my classroom an wept again today. Wasn't sure I'd ever be able to get up, now weeping at my desk instead, fee frozen to my chair. Maybe I'll sit here until tomorrow morning ( Read more... )

Sitting in the waiting area of the Oxford donor centre. I see a poster for NHSBT PAY RE-BALLOT