Am I depressed because I've spent the last 9 years working a job I'm not good at and which makes me sad, or do I think that I've spent the last 9 years working a job I'm not good at and which makes me sad because I'm depressed?

Sorry it's me again. I am emailing you because you're my line manager. I have been, and am, experiencing what I am going to call a Very Low Mood. On Monday 5 June I spent much of the day weeping at my desk. Various colleuges in DT suggested I went home. I was teaching two y12 periods only that day, so judged they would probably be the best two ( Read more... )

Another afternoon where I'm lying on my classroom floor weeping, I really don't think I can keep doing this

Useless fucking wanker totally useless at your fucking job stop wasting everyone's time

Yesterday someone asked me a question about if I preferred to live by myself or others. I don't know how to know what I prefer, so I asked them. Obviously this didn't go well. I feel like most folks were taught how to know what they prefer, and then forget how they were taught so they can't go on to share with others.

Yesterday was the 10th anniversary of my kidney donation

I don't want it to be forgotten that yesterday I lay on my classroom floor and wept. I wasn't sure I I would ever be able to get up again

Standing in the space between the shed and the fence in my parents garden so they can't see me cry. Another shameful experience to weigh on me

It's like all the advice and schooling you could get isn't helpful to you if you're a useless wanker. Work, cry, repeat what even is the point?

Go to work, cry at work

Just what is the point?