Talking to my dad this evening, he told an anecdote about Mamadou Wane and Molly Newett. He refers to me in the third person. When I bring it up, he says that he's confusing me with his younger brother (Alan Buchanan)

Tomorrow I am to give an interview on local radio, and then crews from the BBC, Sky, and ITV are coming to film. I am apprehensive about what the picket will look like. Numbers on the picket line have been on decline, and I feel like there has been a hit to unity from the Special Dispensation ( Read more... )

So there's these things I do, which don't affect other people, which I feel I have to discreetly because other people have visceral reaction to these behaviours ( Read more... )

I just got off the phone as part of counselling session arranged in anticipation of my vasectomy. I have to decide if my choice is a positive empowering one, or a an expression of my self hatred ( Read more... )

Yesterday:
Aged 35 crying in my childhood bedroom. I feel like I'm talking into the void.

So my friend, let me tell you something. Quite a lot of my attention at the moment is fixated on how I am a bad teacher. A colleague has asked that I might meet them after work next week at 4.30 in the afternoon. Now I don't think I've ever left work in time to meet someone at 4.30 in the afternoon, so the invitation serves as a reminder that ( Read more... )

Today was very hard, I cried twice in front of two different sets of colleuges

At a club night, within the last 12 months, and a woman asks me what I'm on. All I can muster is 'sadness'

I feel like I've given 9 years of my life to a job I've not done very well, and not been very happy about

The more I learn about myself, the more I resent myself