Things have been much better lately. Overall my life is great again. I got a new car, signed a lease for next year, it's summer vacation, and I haven't had to be on IV antibiotics for over a year. I am a bit more optimistic about my future and I have some plans for after graduation. I'm just living my life. "the weeks go fast but the days go so ( Read more... )

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let me just say that andrew has been the best ever lately. He has been super sweet and taken care of me when i'm freaking out. i cant express how much he means to me. i'm sooooo in love. yep. <3

i'm so angry. i dont even know why. because i dont like anything? but why? why do i always feel this way? why wont it stop?

i ripped my check in half friday as i was taking it out of the envelope. i taped it back together ( Read more... )

well its venetian weekend. Another year doing photography and i must say it's lost most of it's luster. I'm tired and getting sick again and i dont feel like climbing the bluff all day all weekend.  if it were not for the sponsor party last night I would have been absolutely miserable and pissed off. But 2 rum and cokes and some smart ass comments ( Read more... )

have you ever woken up from a bad dream and felt relief that it was over but then looked around and realized that you would probably prefer the bad dream over real life?  as if waking up were the end of your only escape...

try explaining this feeling to people that care about you and see how much further your life can go towards bad. because they ( Read more... )

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I feel like my heart is going to cave in at the same time my head explodes. I cant escape myself or my past no matter how hard I try to change or run away. Will I continue to pay for my mistakes for the rest of my life?

I've turned into what I was trying to not become while I was doing all of that stupid self-righteous bullshit that I thought would ( Read more... )

i changed my mind. i'm going back to bed.