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I Know Very Little
There are very few things that I actually know to be true. I'll list them below ( Read more... ) -
Wherein I've Been Awake At Night
Since the beginning of the year, I've been awake during the late evening through early morning hours. This has left me with a lot of contemplative time. In fact, I did a kind of therapy technique. I altered it from it's original design and purpose to fit my needs. I've been using it for a while now and it's had an interesting effect.
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So It's Been, Like, Forever...
Yeah, I've been all silent for a while now. I've been busy and all sorts of abnormal and shit. Longness to come... get a cup of tea or coffee.
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Cleaning House (Childhood Through High School)
So, the details of my life before I was 18 (other than when I was 14) is mostly a mystery to all of you. You may know little bits of stuff but I'm doing a whole house cleaning thing with my life. The things I felt and did and why. This'll probably be a series of posts. There's too much to write in one post and I'm sure I'll run out of emotional ( Read more... ) -
Not Much Of An Update
I'm so cold. Ya know what I mean? Nothing to do with the temperature outside, but I can't stop from feeling physically cold and shaking from memories and the sense of loss. It's been 4.5 years and it's almost just as fresh as if it happened yesterday. I don't know how... or what to do... or for how much longer I can... It's like living in hell. My ( Read more... ) -
Overload!
So I haven't posted in a while and that's mostly been because of Seasonal Affect. It's sapped my energy and my desire to do much. I'll just do bullet points ( Read more... ) -
Quick Update
I've gotten about 10 calls today. Anyone checking on me? Sure... they wanted me to pick up the niece and nephew from school today (and probably tomorrow). I didn't answer the house phone or my cell phone even once. I only know that the niece and nephew needed picking up is because my nephew called me from his phone. I feel badly for my niece and ( Read more... ) -
I Finally Feel Something Other Than Sad
Right now I'm just stewing in my own angry juices because at least it's a fucking feeling other than being sad and crying. Do you know why? Because my father put me behind schedule on Monday because Mom wanted to go up to Abilene to see the new grandchild... after she and her parents had been here from Wednesday on until Sunday. How did it fucking ( Read more... ) -
It's Cold
It's been in the 50s all day long. I've been cold all day long. I miss LA weather!
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To Every Thing, There Is A Season
So, no post about the weekend. Simple reason. I broke things off with Dmitri.
( Explained )