stupid, how many tests have i done for these stupid people? they know what's wrong, just cut me already! goddamn. saw constantine last night with my friend RJ. Good times. i just wish keanu reeves wouldn't act because it's a terrible thing. except in the devils advocate. spain in three weeks. so excited, it's creeping up on me and i love it. i've ( Read more... )

I met one. a good one that makes me laugh and the troubles seem like ants to squish. the laughing is the best part.

wild oats blows, i want to work at the good food store.

surgery next week. i keep waiting for them to tell me i have cancer.

but those things don't matter when my blood feels like it's been drowned in sugar.

he said i was amazing, beautiful, and made him happy when he could see my face, even just in his mind. and had sex with another girl that night. it's ridiculous how absent minded people are. i saw closer before that, and wished not to believe love could be like that. but through repetitive occurrences of shit like this happening, i'm not surprised ( Read more... )

If I was a rich man I'd buy you some shoes ( Read more... )

trying to explain depression to a person who can't even grasp being sad for more than two hours is difficult. it's frustrating when they think it's completely your fault because you can't live in the moment and be happy to just be alive. sometimes being alive doesn't FELL good enough when it's painful. im trying to keep my head up when i feel like ( Read more... )

Hangin' out at Xela's. I like her. She makes me smile. Typical thing for us to do is get our paychecks, cash them at our sperate banks, go to Blue, probably don't buy anything, then hang out at westside video and watch movies. Before that eat crapes. It's a good time. Past few days have been weird. Anyway... yeah. I need something different in my ( Read more... )

i like people who like me for me. it's nice. doesn't happen too often. i also think my cat is the most beautiful loving creature within 5 feet of me right now.... which actually eliminates everything else, but you know what i mean. i hope everyone had a good night.

I miss Andrew.

I'll probably be the last to know, no one says until it shows. See how it is... they want you or they don't. Say yes.
I want to go a concert, and I wish it could be elliot...

i like movies. i was driving tonight, listening to pinback. and i got a rush of motivation to do something that would amaze people, mainly myself. i want to look at something that i've made or done and not be able to believe that i did that. i want to do amazing things. i want my parents to be proud of me. i want my friends to think im going places ( Read more... )

so i randomly smoked pot for the first time in forever. i dont know why. i think i just wanted to remember what it felt like to be high. and i think whitney (from wild oats) is really fun and she makes me laugh. so i decided what the hell. so were driving me home (my fuckin car is still in the shop) and a police is following us. not with his lights ( Read more... )