alright.. i feel like im gaining some kind of control on my life.. even though everything is everywhere, i feel like i have some kind of hold. First period felt longer than usual.. and it usually goes by too quickly. I start paying attention and asking questions in Alg and Chem.. and I really need to get my act together. I stayed after school to ( Read more... )

not much has changed.. over these past couple of days. I've joined an online community, where i could really relate to people.. we have a lot in commen and I love posting and reading. I'd rather not post the community here. (I made a new Lj account for it). Im trying to get focused on a lot of things like school.. and im trying to get control of my ( Read more... )

yet again, I feel like a failure. I feel like crap right now and I feel oh so disapointed in myself... sighs. Today wasn't too bad though. I woke up, went to work froom 6-2 and then around 5 I went to pick matt up. We chilled the whole night and it was seriously the best fun i've had in a long time. First we went to go find a gym.. and I went to ( Read more... )

I feel like a failure. I feel depressed. I feel.. tired. I feel completley... out of control. I cant tell you how I feel.. how I strive for perfection, and i'm so far away. I feel like crying. I feel like everything is out, out of my control.. how everything is spinning. How everything, how everything isn't what it's supposed to. I want to run away ( Read more... )

today wasn't that terrible. It's just a daily dose of bad. Everyone has to have their share. Then again some days life gives you candy and other's it gives you that sour shit you just spit out when u put it into your mouth. Arg! I spoke with Kayley today! I haven't seen her in like 2 weeks because she was out of school and now i'm out. Goodness it ( Read more... )

AMY YOUNG

A

is for

Alluring

M

is for

Mesmerizing

Y

is for

Young

Y

is for

Yummy

O

is for

Outrageous

U

is for

Unique

N

is for

Nutty

G

is for

Gifted


What Does Your Name Mean?
I went to the docs today. I'm out until ( Read more... )

I took a steamy hot shower today. As the hot drops of water splashed onto my body I felt relaxed and tranquil. I felt as if I could have stayed there forever. At that moment all of my problems didn't exist. All the problems I've brought upon myself diminished and I felt free and at peace. Once I go back.. everything is going to change, yet again.*

slowly but surley my life will fall apart. I sit and I watch the peices fall and I feel helpless to stop them. I have to stop running and start fixing things, instead of watching and waiting. I always wait for things to fall into place, im too fixated on what I want to achieve them. I try to take the easy way instead working hard. I need to fix my ( Read more... )

alright.. sooo let's see. Saturday Trini and I chilled, and we went to go chill with Dommie, but trini didn't feel well and dommie ended up going out. So it was just me. I looked at the clock and it was like 8. I was like Shit, im so not going home. Then, I tried to make some calls on my cell phone and basically it almost went out the window. I was ( Read more... )

uh huh. "We love to make you smile" and "I'm lovin' it" What the fuck kind of bullshit is that. Work sucks. We don't even care if you smile, let alone if you get your food while it's hot. We don't give a shit if you have a million other places to be, and your pissed off because you didn't get your food in .663 of a second. We really don't give a ( Read more... )