gavin leaves friday night for chicago where he will be for a month ( Read more... )

i wish somebody could relate to me when i say i really can't fucking take this anymore, but in the senses that i mean ( Read more... )

i'm going to go back to working at vans ( Read more... )

i used to think this was entirely physical illness, but now i have realized it is mental, at least for the most part.
i still don't feel well physically however; i am going to vomit, for multiple reasons, too.
not to mention, my minimalistic efforts have flown out the window leaving me at the drawing board.

my life/weekends lately entirely consist of ( Read more... )

today wasn't a good day, it wasn't a good day at all ( Read more... )

i cannot do this; i cannot do this on my own.

i tell myself, "you can do it; you can do this. just breathe and say it; just say something," but, like clockwork and without fail, i ALWAYS choke up and turn to try and pass by unnoticed no matter the circumstances or opportunities given to me.
this will not get easier until i do something about it.

i'm at a dead-stop ( Read more... )

i'm still not feeling one-hundred percent, but it's all good ( Read more... )