Most of the time my dreams are just that: Dreams. I go to sleep, I have them, and they're gone when I awaken. Lately, however, I've been having some that not only stick with me, but let me do some of that silly dream analysis. I'll describe them here when my stomach is doing better ( Read more... )

Upon a second reading, I find that last post sounded a tad emo. The truth of the matter is, I will be rejected. Dr. Seuss was rejected almost thirty times before he caught on. It would be the height of ego to assume that I wouldn't receive even one! Truth is, I need some rejection practice.

Nez gave me some opinions that she meant to be helpful. Instead, I had an anxiety attack. I've mellowed, but my guts are keeping me awake now. Still, it was good to hear this sort of thing now, from someone who loves me. Now I'll be prepared for all the rejection notices I'll be receiving.

I haven't posted anything here in a while. The combination of a busted laptop and nothing of interest to say about one's life is a potent one! This time, however, I have news: my book is done. Oh, I'm sure some editor will want to rip big 'ol holes in it, and then I have to find someone to publish it, but it's ready. I know everyone talks about ( Read more... )

I haven't had much to say lately. I feel like I'm healing, which is nice, but I feel like I'll be healing forever. Like I'll never mend. Christmas is almost here, and I'm not going to put up a tree this year. I just can't summon the energy to make a deliberate mess, and in my house if I don't do it then it doesn't get done.

So tired. Just bone

I got home today to find a riddle floating before me. That one led to six others. I was tired from work, so I needed a hint or two, but eventually I found my way to the dishwasher. Inside was some pencils, a plastic sword, and a board game. It was a surprise birthday party riddle scavenger hunt! There was lots of laughing and food and gaming. It ( Read more... )

I've been feeling so strange lately. After all the trouble last year and my subsequent mental restructuring, I've been bouncing in and out of grooves like a record player with a worn-down needle. It's like I never know which tune my soul will be dancing to tomorrow.

I'm going into my second and last week of vacation, and it's been mixed results. I've slept a lot. I mean A LOT. I slept more in the first 48 hours than I did in the two weeks before! I also got an extra day of vacation when my boss told me not to come in because it was so dead. He's cool like that ( Read more... )

How do you feel if someone listens to you, especially one of your failings, and they respond with "You're only human." How does that make you feel?

I've had a really interesting year so far. Lots of ups and downs. What I have NOT done is record much of it. I guess it's part fatigue, part emabrrassment, and part not really knowing what to make of a lot of it.