Where did my creative energy go? I haven't written a song since January 2010. I feel lazy.

Had a session with the therapist today; he challenged me to write a letter as my 18/19/20 year old self in the midst of the abusive relationship I was in and then to respond as my 23 year old self. I said I would do it because I know it will help me open up, but I fear that it's going to open up all that pain I had for nearly three whole years. I ( Read more... )

I have session number 2 tomorrow morning with Len (therapist). I don't know what it is about talking to people, but I get very nervous about the prospect. I wonder if I just like to hide too much? Anyways, after that I have a meeting with my new supervisor at work. OH YEAH... I got a promotion! It was really more a matter of reorganizing the ( Read more... )

So, I met with a counselor/therapist for the first time in my life today. (I met with one, once, as a child, probably 11 or 12 but I don't remember it too well.) It was... interesting, to say the least. I cried. I didn't think I would, but apparently I feel safe talking to a complete stranger. Something about the notion of a therapist is not ( Read more... )

I am attempting to be more fiscally responsible. Last year I managed to pay off one of my two credit cards. I had the other down to a balance less than $1000 and had told myself I could and would have it paid off by the beginning of this year... it has since risen substantially and has caused me much anxiety since I've become to reliant on it and ( Read more... )

So, I was accepted into a Master of Arts program at ASU West. YAY!!! I am beyond excited to start the program, which conveniently starts on the day I'm coming back from vacation with my family, so that should be a busy day. The first class I'm taking is an online elective course, so I can really get used to the amount of reading/writing professors ( Read more... )

So, Luis reckons I'm depressed. He came to this conclusion from my lack of enthusiasm with things in general and my vapid mood swings. Horridly, I'm starting to agree with him. I looked up the symptoms on WebMD and it does sound a lot like my day to day. I don't feel blue as much as worthless, constantly exhausted for no reason, and pretty much ( Read more... )

I am quite proud of myself lately ( Read more... )

Commuting sucks ballz. I leave my house at 6:35am to get to work by 8:00am. I leave work at 5:00pm to get home at 6:45pm. I then eat a bit, watch an hour of TV, check facebook, and pass out. Commuting sucks ballz ( Read more... )

I have a part-time job working in a domestic violence shelter. I'm using my degree, even if it is part-time and not very high pay. I'm still looking for full-time employment or a 30 hr/wk job to compliment my part-time status. I need monies ( Read more... )