joe invited me over last night. i got there and he and i had a huge falling out. i dont even know what i did, he was in a bad mood and just started laying into me. i just sat there and let him scream at me and say the most horrible things anyone has ever said to me. all i could do is cry. it hurts so much to hear those things coming from him. he ( Read more... )

the apartment is coming along. whoever lived there before us was disgusting and the landlord didnt have time to clean before we moved in so kari and i are doing it. all i can really say is thank god spring break is next week, we have to scrub the place down. the kitchen is pretty much done and it looks really nice. our landlord stopped today and ( Read more... )

i saw him yesterday. it was weird. hes called a bunch lately. i dont know. thats all i can really say ( Read more... )

"i love you. promisesweartogodforever. - joe"

remember that? yeah, fuck you for making me believe it.

i keep trying to tell myself that my life was fine before him and it will be fine after him too. but i cant help but cry everytime i think of my life without him. we talked today for the first time in four days really. he says we should both move on and date other people. it makes my stomach hurt so bad to even think about. i dont understand. less ( Read more... )

i really need a change of pace. my sister and i talked and we are moving to oswego asap and i will be going to school there in the fall unless i decide want to get my RN which at this point is looking like a great option. i need to get out of the rut im in. i drove around and got about a million job applications, i cant just sit around anymore its ( Read more... )

ok, so i was listening to this in the car on my way to school ( Read more... )

so phil and tim are moving to delaware. fucking awesome. so now i get to live at our house by myself and pay for all the bills and stuff myself. greeeeat. im fucking miserable today. i need to find roomates. i realized how fucking unhappy i really am today and i feel like shit. tonight is my last night of work at 12th street ever so i guess thats ( Read more... )

i dont understand anything lately. i dont know how i want things to be. everything is so weird. i think i just stopped caring.

really though, when did things get like THIS?