i just got a new computer and i havnt updated this shit in forever ( Read more... )

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so i trained this week, it was the first time in a a few months, it felt great. i was really worried that i was going to be stepping all over my feet but i wasnt. so anyways i havnt written in a really long time. mostly because i just havnt felt like writting, i gotta go to work today, tonight after work though ill be seeing mehran hes having this ( Read more... )

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im an asshole. i feel like the biggest fucking piece of shit on the planet. Im depressed as fuck right now and this time its for good reason, ive hurt two of my close friends tonight. I talked the sitiution over with them and they are kewl with me but i feel like a fucking prick and want to curl up into a little ball and die. I dont feel like im ( Read more... )

so i didnt have money for the club tonight, which doesnt really bother me that i didnt go to the club but what does suck is the inevitable call im going to recieve from ryan asking me why i wasnt there. i dont have shit to write about lately. I got all my classes that i wanted at golden west. im happy bout that. But as usual im just praying for ( Read more... )

okee so apprently i caused a whole bunch of drama. It was completely accidental but i still feel pretty bad about it. so what happened was this, i was on nonmundane and i stumbled upon what i thought to be a new user. so i checked out her profile and in her profile her deadjournal was listed (get it dead journal huh huh huh huh). so i decided to ( Read more... )

so i havnt written in a looong time so i figured i at least owed it to myself to do so ( Read more... )

with every drink reality slips further and further away.
with every sip you become less and less important

so, im gonna hang out with the sweetest/cutest girl ever on saturday. Last saturday we talked a bunch and hit it off really good, and now we're playing that get to know you game. Its weird i havnt done this in a looong time, I figure ill just be myself and see what happens. Ive been so busy lately i dont even know what to do with myself. Ive gotta ( Read more... )