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Life Update: The Grandiose Mystery of the Boy Who Finally Grew Up
Randomly, I remembered that I had a journal where I would capture all my inner workings and letters to people that I knew would never read them, at a point in my life where I feel like I have so much bottled up and in dire need of a release. A place, I remembered as safe, as comfort and fear, as a full-sized mirror that I could just be. So, here I ( Read more... ) -
Positives
You know, it never mattered where my heart stood, or lay, or ever thought about being. It was mostly about my insecurities and how I ended up failing every time. Sure, sometimes I would succeed and open up just enough to let something new blossom, but, as it turns out, i happen to be a horrible gardener, so to speak. I've opened up, closed shop, ( Read more... ) -
Wisdom and Understanding.
I sent the letter and almost immediately wanted to take it back. I had a moment with God where I wasnt sure exactly who I was chasing after first. Chasing Lauren's heart doesn't necessarily lead to God's, but God's definitely can. But, would I choose to follow God simply because I earn a prize in the end, simply because my prayers get answered?
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Move Number One.
I did it. I summoned up some courage and I sent her a letter ( Read more... ) -
Unlucky/Honeyed Verbs
You're mad at me, and I for you ( Read more... ) -
Louder Than Thunder
What would it take for things to be quiet?
Quiet, like the snow.
And I know this isn't much but,
I know I could I could be better.
I don't think I deserve it;
Selflessness.
Find your way into my heart.
All stars could be brighter.
All hearts could be warmer.
What would it take for things to be quiet?
Quiet, like the snow.
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In a Simple Fashion...
I like you. I can't really explain how or why. But I do know when and how.
I like you. I want to be with you. I just don't want to sit and let time pass by until I can find words that truly don't exist.
I like you. Everything is in God's hands. And God's hands are upon my heart, showing me your face every time I pray.
I like you. I'm beginning to ( Read more... ) -
Broken Hearts and Superstores.
I collide with the cosmos to transform ( Read more... ) -
You're the reason I can't control myself. You are the reason.
I'd like to have some questions, and maybe even some answers why this recent relapse finally happened. Why everything now seems so much brighter than the day before. Why, in that one moment I cried out to God hoping He would listen to rid these demons I harbor, He decided to listen and finally ease my soul. Why these dreams, and why this girl in ( Read more... ) -
Disguises.
Smooth jazz and the prominence of Z's fill the sky
as I pick around the litter on my floor just to lift heavy eyes
and wonder in such disgust why my bed has such a pretty disguise;
a temptress in distress foretelling my sleepy demise.
I feel myself relapsing again. I feel my mind trying to compensate for the empty hole I have in my chest, trying to ( Read more... )