i still feel so lost. but its a different kind of lost. now its just like i dont have a comfort zone. i'm never "in my element." i dont have an element, and i feel lost. why does everyone have something they can connect with or feel comfortable around and completely love and i have nothing at all like that. where's my element and why is it

i'm so lonely.
not even lonely for a person to cuddle with or anything like that. just lonely for any kind of company. just someone to sit and talk to.

i'm so tired of pretending. i'm tired of being alone and i'm tired of being strong. i hate how no one knowing how i am really feeling because i've gotten so good at pretending i'm happy. i've gotten so good at putting on a smile and saying i'm good ( Read more... )

i think if i were to kill myself, tonight would be the opportune night ( Read more... )

i sometimes wish there was atleast someone who read this.
maybe someone important.

or maybe i just want to believe i'm writing for a reason.

i feel like i'm losing everything ( Read more... )

i'm tired of pushing myself. i just want to live my life casual and relaxed, the way that i want to.
i dont see the point in trying anymore.

i'm watching house ( Read more... )

i've just come to the realization that i am horribly incredibly messed up in the head. i'm such a jealous and almost spiteful person. i don't want or mean to be, but i am. why the fuck am i here ? what is the point of my life if i can't even be the person i want to be? i know the thoughts that come across my head are stupid and fucked up, but ( Read more... )

what the fuck am i doing with my life? and why does that question keep coming up ( Read more... )