What do I say to an angry child who is so angry she simply can’t move forward? She called last night and I think, was trying to have a conversation, but it just kept spiraling back to “your choosing him over me” “everything is changing”, “your selfish”, “ you do too understand your just pretending not to” “I’M TELLING YOU HOW I FEEL, YOUR NOT ( Read more... )

So Coleman and I cried a lot yesterday, and then we had a bowl of soup and started to talk about how we are going to handle stuff now that it’s just us… we speculated on Malika coming back (Coleman thinks it will be a few weeks, I think it will be longer. But we both decided that we will enjoy a few weeks of quiet ( Read more... )

I’m not sure how you gently go about changing an abusive relationship, expressly when the abuser has does not feel they are abusing you. But at some time, you realize you are being abused, and then what? I tried to get her some help, I tried to alter how I responded, but things did not change… if fact they got worse. It just seemed the more I got ( Read more... )

People come into our lives and people go, sometimes for good reasons and sometimes not… mostly they just fade away, stop calling or emailing and fall out of our lives. It is hard to know what to do, do we just allow the slow demise or do we somehow tell them that we understand and have the chance to say goodbye. There is someone I would like to say ( Read more... )

Once Angie said she followed the while of the year by what was going on at Holly’s farm. I follow the wheel by the tree outside my office window… the tree is not growing heartily in a lush glade, nor does it stand proudly on a grassy median. It has taken root, in a most unlikely crack in the tar on a flat roof that protects the entrance of the ( Read more... )

Coleman reset my alarmed clock to listen to his cd last night and forgot to change it back so I woke up to “screamo rock”, it was going to be a terrible horrible no good very bad day ( Read more... )

I have had the most amazing day, and I’m not sure why. I pulled the death card from my oracle deck this morning and after that monetary shudder I always get when I see it, a giddy calm settled over me. I knew instantly that what was going to die should die; it had been hanging around far too long. Stepping outside to greet this glorious day it ( Read more... )

and I had the gall to dismiss him ( Read more... )

Life is such a passing of turns and empty spots, glasses of wine and gentle, yet unyielding feelings… one does not always know in which direction one should go… nor does one always have the wherewithal to choose. Perhaps sometimes it is ok to just be. To let things wash over oneself and not try to catch, to hold or to force. Just to let it go and ( Read more... )