it's been a long time live journal. a long time. i don't even know where i'd start with how things have gone awry.

Um, yeah that's all I have for now.

06/06/2006

i thought of you,
my soul desperate for attention,
but you killed my fantasy.
i'm just another girl.

that's how i feel. just blah.

yeah, had lotsa fun last night, spent waaaay too much time at the bar, but yeah had some fun. ran into a temp from accounting which made me uncomfortable, she has now seen me acting a fool, but whatever...friday night one of the bartender's girlfriend was having a birthday thing at this bar, so me and ted met up with melissa there, i recognized a ( Read more... )

last night I got into bed and pulled ted close and asked him to hold me for a minute...and then as i ran my fingers through his hair and over his face, i just said "i love you" or "i love you so much" or whatever i said, little drunk, anyway, he sleepily replied "i love you too babe"...and then i just started kissing him and we kissed and kissed ( Read more... )

so ted's extra room may have been sparse with furnishings, but it was his extra room, he put stuff on the wall that was his...I get there last night and his mom had stopped by...First off, she cleaned the entire apartment, like it smelled like someone had hosed the fucking place down with cleaner, I mean jesus lady! Anyway, she took down a couple ( Read more... )

ted's mom has now turned his extra room (where i was planning to put my computer and desk) into a fucking extra bedroom. Two twin beds, a dresser, I mean jesus christ. I guess it's for if there is a hurricane and his parent's need to evacuate they can come stay with him...Just.Great. I swear I will stay put in Gulf Port during a fucking flood if ( Read more... )

went to wedding on March 17. we got lost on the way, missed ceremony, but made reception. i proceeded to get hammered. night wore on, at some point ted got irritated with me...called me a drunk i believe...got in big fight, apparently i told him i was going to kill him, and then he just started calling me a fucking bitch...several times, then he ( Read more... )

Friday, went to the bar after work, got home around 7ish pm, ted got home a few minutes later, or was he already home? Eh, red bull and jaeger do that to you...then we went to applebee's cause my boss gave us all a $30.00 GF, that was kewl, ran into another co-worker there who had gotten a certificate as well, that was funny....saturday, went for ( Read more... )