so things with moving to the new place are going slow, there are and have been some issues, but today finally was able to get in the place to start painting and cleaning.  I want to find the owners who had it before our friend and beat them to death, for what they did ( Read more... )

I take you out buy you shoes 
you take me home and help me choose 
between the kitchen table and the bed.

you open up my stubborn mouth 
you feed me like a summer trout 
rising up to breathe between your legs.

hold yourself up high 
hold yourself up high. 
your body as a marker 
a beacon in the dark.

stay where I can reach 
stay where I can reach. 
your ( Read more... )

lost in thought and with boughts of tears pouring through...talked to the one who will always hold my heart and soul today...I cried a lot during the call and after...he is the only one I have ever truly loved the only one who ever loved me for all that I was and am, supported me, respected me, listened to me, and show me the most respect...no one ( Read more... )

Its been 5 years since you left this world, and I miss you still so much...and I still hold onto so much guilt from your death, I can't stop crying today...I woke up crying thinking of you, and through today I just keep crying...I miss you and I am still so sorry I failed you, I didnt meant too, I tried I did but I dont think I did enough.  I lost ( Read more... )

I figure I had better be honest with myself so maybe I can start healing ( Read more... )

Is currently trying to buy a house...yes a house with 2 others as co signers but a house I can call my own and it is humming with old power and love.

Send me good vibes

I'm lost confused miserable as hell, sick to my stomach and just down right lonely.

Another I knew and loved lost to cancer this week...then knowing my youngest step son is now addict like his father at the age of 15, I feel my heart break....the sad part is I know he wont pull through this, its the same terrible gut feeling I had with Krystle...

"I Am Stretched on Your Grave" is an anonymous 17th century Irish poem titled "Táim ( Read more... )

 To Welland I will go this upcoming weekend.  To finally have my tattoo finished, it has taken over 4 years and many hours of work, but she will finally have full life in her,  I can't wait.  Also thankfully I will not be dragging russ and his niece with me, who is now here for instead of the 2 wks I was told will be here for a month.  And the ( Read more... )

 So my favorite Occult writer, researcher was working a on a book, he asked for submission on people experiences.  I sent one of mine, I heard nothing back but that was okay.  The book came out, I couldn't afford to buy it, so my friend who had it lent it to me, as I was reading it the other night, I got a story sent to him from Canada, as I read ( Read more... )