I've felt darkness
Closing in on me
Chilling shadows
Surrounding me
I've had the poison leak into my skin and it 
corroded my heart away
Blew away
Cut away
Dark night of my soul...

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just shoot me please...i cant do this anymore...every time I find something good to make things better in my life I get bitch slapped with a bat.  Every good thing I do gets repaid with hurt, regret, a kick...so wtf am I even bothering anymore.  I have no fight left in me to give I just cant keep doing this....

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Blessed Yule and a Happy Christmas to everyone who actually reads my rantings.

I am feeling so rotten about myself the last few days its unreal.  I mean I know I put on weight but this is insane and out of control and no one can seem to help me or understand why or what to do.  I have no waist line anymore, my abdomen is bigger than my chest (which is a feet cause i have a large chest), my face is swollen my legs and feet but ( Read more... )

So on monday I got to see Prince.  Yup that is right Prince.  It was amazing to see one of my favorite artist growing up on stage, it was luck that I ended up with a ticket and it is something I will never forget ( Read more... )

On friday I went to see VNV Nation at the Phoenix Club in Toronto.  This was my second time seeing them live and it was even more amazing than the first time.  I was in awe, I laughed, I cried, I screamed, sang and danced non stop for well over 2 hrs.  It was amazing ( Read more... )

So the place is slowly coming along, trying to make everything flow and find it place.  Of course I seem to work on the kitchen and my book first....no thats not strange at all ( Read more... )

SO the move is offically done, I am in the house, now the task of unpacking unfolds.  i started from 10am this morning, there is so much to do and i feel like it will never get done ( Read more... )

Well this turned out to be an odd, emotional, fucked up bad day...happy Samhain to me ( Read more... )