_-::{this has been said so many times that I'm not sure if it matters}::-_

[mel_leeann]

ugh...I had a whole journal entry typed up and it deleted it all

Comments

[aburgnlburg24]

melissa. you are gorgeous hunny. im serious. i love you and how beautiful you have become as you grow. lol..i sound like a mother or something. but really. you amaze me and i love you. dont ever wish thatt you were anyone but yourself. becuase you are amazing. and i would hate for you to change. if you are made in God's likeness...how could you possibly think you are anything but beautiful?? i have to tell myself this stuff sometimes. but if you ever need me...im a phone call away. love you muchhh!

[aburgnlburg24]

how do you make your sentances scroll across the screen!>!?!??!!?

[meg_ren16]

<*marquee>Your scrolling text here<*/marquee>

***Just remove the stars!***

[blondejesuschik]

that is AWESOME

awesome!!

Here is the trurth don't be mad but this is how i see it

[anonymous]

i'm sorry to say this to you but you seem to have pushed everyone away that was there for you and you don't want anything to do with them anymore. It's like your trying to hide yourself form everyone seeing the pain your trying to hide and you don't people can see it in your face. You have to talk to someone that you trust because if you don't you will blow up and you will end up killing yourself or die trying to hide yourself form the world.
Friend

Re: Here is the trurth don't be mad but this is how i see it

[mel_leeann]

I have no problem with you posting in my livejournal at all. But if your going to then please use your name don't hide behind the anonymous thing. I've pushed everyone away? I don't think so. But good to know that you know my future and I am going to end up killing myself thanks I'll be sure to inform people thats how I will die.

Re: Here is the trurth don't be mad but this is how i see it

[anonymous]

I'm sorry i didn't mean it any way as but to be helpful and my name is julie i have just been reading your journal i have know idea who you are sorry to offend you it just the way i see it

Re: Here is the trurth don't be mad but this is how i see it

[mel_leeann]

its okay I know you meant to be helpful its just thats not what it really sounded like. julie? where do you live and why are you reading my lj and posting on it if you do not have a a lj?

[callieannhanks]

That was probably a post that was meant to help but could be taken one way or the other, don't take it to much to heart... just remember its not up to you or them or anyone to control your life--its the big man upstairs

[mel_leeann]

yea I know and well I took it the wrong way I suppose. I completly 100% know what you are talking about when you said you used to look in the mirror and find something wrong everytime. I have been like this for about 3 going on 4 years. it sucks so bad.I know that God made me perfectly the way He wanted me and in the likeness of Him so therefore I am perfect. It's just I don't see it. I can honestly not see it no matter how hard I try. I have tried the whole telling myself all the good points too me before and looking into the mirror and telling myself I am beautiful...but it only ends in me in tears and even more upset because I know I am lying to myself. I may pull ya over sometime. It's good to know that I have people care and everything. That makes me happy and glad to know. And it works both ways. If you ever need someone we always have 3rd together! Your awesome!

not to be nosey...but what did you go through? or was that the previous mentioned stuff or was there more? you dont have to answer I was just curious.

[callieannhanks]

I'll tell you about it, but not for the world to see. Give me an e-mail address or something. It's not for LJ eyes.

[callieannhanks]

jfreak782003@yahoo.com

[heaven_dreamer]

as someone who has been there before... making a hard decision like that (and i'm just guessing at what it's about) can be the hardest thing you ever have to do, but you have to find some way to get through it... find something to look forward to everyday or find little things that make you happy and soon you'll forget what you gave up. i know it's hard and takes time, but once you're through it you'll feel soooo much better!! iheartyou and i hope you get through this!!

[mel_leeann]

hmm I dunno if you know what my decision is you very well could. but its not one that I want to make at all....

[heaven_dreamer]

i totally understand