patheticism

[menevira]

i live in an imaginary world most of the time. i create conversations and feelings out of nothing. i have always needed someone to care about me. realizations like these hurt. i don't know what it is that i'm supposed to do now. when i strip it all down i still don't know what it is that i want. i want to feel good. cleansed. the problem is i have

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[archon_ramie]

Instead of strapping yourself to any chair, just give me a call. We'll talk until 7 in the morning like old times. It might not fix anything, but it's worth a try. If only for old times sake.

[menevira]

Thank you, that would be rather nice :)

I don't stay up late like that very often anymore so don't worry, you'll still get some semblance of sleep.

[hotpinkzombie]

This makes me think about a conversation I had last night. We were discussing trying to be happy. I've determined that most people have to really try and work for happiness. Those that have it automatically are the ones with the chemical imbalance...

I don't know if that makes you feel any better, but I like looking at it that way. It makes me feel that I'm the normal one, and the rest of the world is fucked up. ;)

[menevira]

It would be nice if at least one thing in my life made me easily happy. And most of the people out there that are happy aren't really that happy anyway. It's just really hard to deal with sometimes. But yeah, the rest of the world is at least as fucked up as I am. Thank you for reminding me, that is one thing that does help me cheer up a little :)

[plastik_blue]

i totally know how you feel, you just have a way of articulating it much more beautifully.