i just reread my life. a snippet anyway. it's just as true today as it was 5 or even 10 years ago - i have absolutely no control over my emotions. i've tried medication. being a recluse. being a social butterfly. a slut. a drug addict. an environmentalist. a student...not one thing is me. i am a series of experiences that continue to shape me. i ( Read more... )

I hate when I can't express myself. I have been unable to do it properly with one specific person for a few weeks now. I think it's possible I am now viewed as "crazy." When did being an introvert cause problems like this? Ha.

I arrived Tuesday afternoon after a 12 1/2 hour drive from Fairfax. The drive went smoothly(I'm so excited that my car made it). My dad showed me where UWM's campus was and we looked around a bit. It looks really easy to get around, not too big but definitely not small. I'm only in one building so I don't have to worry about running around to ( Read more... )

So I'm moving to Wisconsin next Monday. I'll be attending UWM(Univ. of Wisconsin-Milwaukee) this fall. Classes start Sept. 4. I'm extremely excited yet also extremely terrified. I've never been in a university setting so I'm not too sure how different it will be. I'm wondering if the classes will be that much harder. We'll see shortly I suppose ( Read more... )

i think i need a change of scenery.

Va Beach this weekend is not exactly what i had in mind but it'll have to do i suppose.

i hate my job ( Read more... )

i live in an imaginary world most of the time. i create conversations and feelings out of nothing. i have always needed someone to care about me. realizations like these hurt. i don't know what it is that i'm supposed to do now. when i strip it all down i still don't know what it is that i want. i want to feel good. cleansed. the problem is i have ( Read more... )

you make me smile when there is nothing to smile about.

school went well this past semester, four As and a B. it felt good to do well and make that GPA a little less scary. i can currently graduate with an associate's degree in general studies but i'm taking a 3rd semester of spanish in order to fulfill all the requirements of GMU's transfer program. i don't want to take this class. i don't even know if ( Read more... )

I enjoy creating libraries. I'm currently doing one for my CDs and after that is finished I'll be doing one for my books. I'm trying to be more organized. I used to be color-coded or alphabetized depending on what I was working with. Everything had a specific spot and if it was moved I knew. I changed things around kind of often but that all ( Read more... )