i essentially feel i have never met anyone similar to me except for my brother; at the same time, as i tried to explain to my newish friend Lena (a gorgeous 26 year old textile designer just out of uni from stuttgart) that even though i seem standoffish, i need and crave human beings as much as anybody, or more; I just want them abstractly, its ( Read more... )

Paris is the 7th city of my life, after charlottesville, williamsburg, beijing, berlin, buenos aires, and metropole (washington/NYC/philly/baltimore/boston) and here the hard thinkign that started in charlottesville, confusedly fought to surface in beijing, turned into a thin and brilliant effervescence in berlin and the beginnings of maturity in ( Read more... )

my parents seem to get stupider and more senile every time i come back but in every other way cville seems to reward me for growing up. both yesterday and today, girls i knew vaguely by name and i have hung out for hours, making two potential new friends in a town where everyone i know is fleeing, which is great because i'll be coming back here ( Read more... )

I have been reading about this topic for a long time, but i come to a point which i think has real validity; international capital markets really shape our own lives in so many ways. I have been gripped with viselike anxiety recently regarding employment/grad school prospects (i mean stupidly but still) and the employment markets i'm thinking are ( Read more... )

I was just writing back to Marianne when I realized in less than two months I'll be back in another world, and in a little more than a year- I will be permanently, which I have been waiting for since I was 12 years old, "resentfully waiting through the rituals of education and rites of passage" like I wrote her, and I'll be free to- i dunno, this ( Read more... )

i've been thinking about possible occupations and here's what i come up with ( Read more... )

I'm taking LCST 302, performance ensemble (music), french 102 and possibly going to france the summer, if not some other good place like maybe mexico? dunno, history of western music and my geology GER. so i realize this is not of any interest to you all but then all GERS will be done for me and then 2 more music credits one in ethnomusicology and ( Read more... )

pelosi has indicated her first move will eb a sweeping invbestigation into corruption; i hope this means cheney as well as rumsfeld out. obviously the ideal would be a presidential impeachment, albeit a politically risky device.withdrawal from iraq, shutting down of abu ghraib, the overturning of the Patriot act and torture bills, an increase in ( Read more... )

and i got used to emotional intimacy ( Read more... )

seems like a good time for facebook update yo fuck them player haters fronting like tru homeiz son/daughter (a better cited rilo kiley) you tryna create an environment in which i feel paranoid and Im not even smoking. all the strrnage muyspace friends in the world cant make up for this island decapitated of reaspon or love, my strange aemotional ( Read more... )