I hate the way I feel right now. I just got off the phone with Andrew for most likely the last time until he gets back from Iraq. I really just want to cry and I can't because I have no one to cry to. I feel like everyone has someone/something to depend on or turn to except me now. I tell him everything. Half the stuff he knows no one else has even ( Read more... )

I haven't written in a while. Andrew has come and gone. I miss him so much. His time here kinda sucked because Carla was around. I knew that was gonna be a bad idea from the start, but I didn't say anything to him about it. I hated the way having to share him with her made me feel. I miss him so much now that he's gone. He leaves for Iraq on the ( Read more... )

YaY. Andrew comes home on the 16th of this month and then leaves on the 21st to go back to California. I'm so happy I could just scream. Oh wait... I already did that :D.

I've been having a crap summer. The beginning part of yesterday kinda sucked ass. Just about all of you know what happened so I'm not gonna write it all here. I spent most of last night on the phone just like freaking out. I mean I was ok when I talked to the doctor and I understand that it could be nothing... but I just keep thinking..."what if it ( Read more... )

Mom has decided that if Jude moves back to the Slidell area, we're gonna move in with him. That pisses me off. No one asked me how I felt about it or if I wanted to live with him again. And I don't. Not to mention he's looking at house in Lacomb. I don't want to live in Lacomb. I want to spend my senior year in slidell with my friends. I think that ( Read more... )

I'm sick of this shit. She needs to realize that even though he's being nive for now he hasn't changed. She's decided that once he finds a house in Slidell or Lacomb that we're gonna move back in with him....Well that's bullshit. I don't want to live with him, but she doesn't really care about my opinion. I don't want to live with him. I hate that ( Read more... )

Yesterday was Jason and my 2 month. :). We went out to Times for dinner and then we went to go see 13 going on 30. That movie was really good and funny... but it's a chick flick. Oh well, we both enjoyed it. That's one thing I really like about Jason is that he'll sit through a chick flick with me. After that we came back to my house and watched ( Read more... )

Hey hey... we placed second for regulation. Can you believe that... we had three substitues and like no practice what so ever yet we still got a trophy... that's awesome. No one else placed though.That kinda sucks. We expected only P.T. team to place and they didn't get anything.

Mom told me a few weeks ago that she and Jude were supposed to be getting a divorce. I was so HAPPY. and I mean like genuinely happy not just I'm smiling so you'll think I'm happy. BUT NO of course it can't be that easy. She went up there on Saturday to tell him that she wanted a divorce and Miraculously he's willing to go to marriage counseling ( Read more... )

I hate this. Why can't she just leave him alone. I can't stand that he is always here. We moved out of that stupid house so that she could get away from him. Now that we're away from him she can't seem to leave him alone. THis is fucking retarded. She tells me I shouldn't hang out with guys because she believes that it is leading them on, yet she ( Read more... )