haha. so last night was a complete knockoff. -.-"

i actually forgot it was halloween until the doorbell rang. (argh that dumb bitch) i was like "wtff?" and i opened the door and these kids were like TRICK OR TREAT. and i was like oooooh yeah, huh?!     i actually have never been on the other side of the door on halloween. :\\ very weird.. i asked ( Read more... )

so this evening was soo emo. i thought alot- which isnt good because it leads to depression. god i feel so lonely. nothing really helps either. not even talking it out. nope. i have noone to talk to anyway. i have to do everything mysself. im not good at that. im very independent- but its not like anyone can live with noone to have fun with or talk ( Read more... )

happy lame halloween.
one i will spend un-TOTing.

no school today and monday. 4day weekend. some fucking retarded holiday. no- not halloween, bimbo. blah. im going to the gym tomorrow, yay excercise. im getting effing FAT. blah whatev.

argh. i went through my stuff and journals- found a VERY old emo poem. - look at hello__emokid  - it actually made me sad ( Read more... )

fuck. i lost all my pictures from retreat. fuuck. argh.

anywho. the retreat was pretty fun and everything. it was actually nice to have the pastor tell the cold truth other than making it seem so effing FAKE. yeaah. and jojo still has my shirt. grr.

yeah. okay. i just dont get it because when im in la its like everythings cool again and RIGHT when ( Read more... )

yay. :D goodbye to this craphole- for 2.5 days. :) or maybe more...psh.

argh. today was moron. this girl came up to me and asked me "are you really asian?" and i was already cranky and so i was being sarcastic and said- "no im jewish" with the -.-" look. and she went over to her table and said -"see you guys, you were lying. shes not asian." and i was like. wtf. what a total asswHipe. with an H! rawr. dumbass ditz.

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happy 14th to moi. :)

good lord. finally. a kickass week.

errrm. yeah so im 14 NOW and on fridee iyo jojo and my dad came and stayed until saturday night. yeah. satrday, rika thomas and anthony came over for liek 3 hours and ate sushi. damn- its been a long time. long time. and then opened presents- socks, sweater, backpack, $, and ipod.  i was ( Read more... )

bittersweet melancholy.

im clearing out my buddy list. i hate looking at it and see how many people i could talk to but then i realize, they probably dont give a fuck.

shit. jojos not coming because of her stupid mother. i hate her mom so much right not. argh. do you see? this is always what happens. i look forward to something and everything has ( Read more... )

blah . nothing happens nowadays. everyone ignores me and i never talk to anyone- :| - predictable i guess.

october-
14th - 1/2 day.
16th - jojo and iyo visits. good lord- finally.
17th - birthday. :)  camera and clothes shoping with jojo. and. stuff?
18th - cousin's birthday ;; long phone convo.
19th - math test and haircut?
22nd - skip school + jet ( Read more... )

hehehe. anyways... i was thinking. [yes im a thinker now. shuttup]

anyways. i cant wait til the 17th because its mey birthday. which is awesome. :\ camera or ipod. i think camera. yeah anyywho. the week after that- on friday- i go to la. i hope i get to see some of my cc friends after school. yeaah. and then retreaaattt. -_____-. blah. anywhoome ( Read more... )