so i finally have decided to update, although i really don't feel like typing much here it goes .... since my last entry about a year ago much has happened. i have grown into someone i am happy with, now i am not going to say that i won't change but i will say that am, i happy with who i am now ( Read more... )

i look outside and all i see are concrete sidewalks, typical of pacoima. someone needs to cut the weeds peering through the cracks before they choke the children walking by.damn pot holes will mees up my wheel alignment someday. and then great another bill to pay.winter's here, but yet it's not.all i can think about is the rain ( Read more... )

so yeah carlos and i broke it off because he was extremely unstable and i'm not ... so that was that. it's funny because he really had me fooled but hey sometimes you step in shit and all you can do it wipe it on the grass of "oh well" and move on ( Read more... )

my grandma died today. she was my last surviving grandparent. i really don't know how to feel. i think i have finally lost all ability to really feel pain. i just feel numb. but i've said that i can't feel pain before and it creeps up on me. i won't claim that i knew her well, because i didn't. but i guess it's the "what if's," that really hurt. ( Read more... )

hapy birthday to the most rocking fucking bitch this side of pacoima. no not you lisa i mean karina ... but you rock too.

i love you all and i hope you guys know and feel that. i wouldn't be where i was if it wasn't for cynthia's guidance,cesar's maturity, lisa's humor, mikey's wisdom, karina's sensitvity, and yes fabian. i credit fabian for making me a stronger person. and if i have forgotten someone please forgive me, i'm sure everyone in my life has contributed to ( Read more... )

word up yo. just want to give a shout out to all my peeps. carlos says "word." well I FINALLY GOT PROMOTED AT WORK!!!!!!! i know it's about damn time and it;s easy as hell. i just need to work on my speed ( Read more... )

her's me updating my journal ( Read more... )

yeah i have a question ..... WHEN THE HELL IS GOING TO GET COLD DAMNIT?!?!?!? yeah so i can't wait for thrusday or firday it's going to be fun. but i must make it clear that i want and am goign to get onb ghostrider this year.i've gone four years in a row wanting to get on that ride and i don't, so this year is going to be the year that it happens ( Read more... )

it's written in the constellations and it is heard in the dying leaves. it is reenacting itself in endless loops in the pale yellow lights that send sonic pulses to warm all the lost children. what is this place? this isn't how i remember it. the history of my childhood echoes with a resonance that reminds me of a time when gunshots weren't ( Read more... )